A dae before new yr eve..

heyo, 36 hr more.. guess will be a complete new yr.. 2006.. a year that might be full of uncertainty , a year that might pass as fast as we did not expect.. nonetheless it shall ba a different year for mi to undertake a different challenge in my life.. of cos.. 2005 is coming to an end.. so is my three years of poly life.. though still got two more months or so.. but i believe.. times pass even faster den we knew it.. nonethless this three yrs have been a joyus phrase of life for mi.. yes!.. very enriching...indeed..

in 2006.. i be getting my diploma in banking and financial service.. whether to continue study or going to society uni.. sumhow i got a lil of guts feeling.. i do think i need a break from all my studies.. to venture intosomthing which i have always dream and wanted when i was young.. a policewomen.. yes!!.. those in blue uniform... but whether to try other stuff before i applied for it.. is another thing to consider.. should i give it a try on bank.. frontline operators.. to gain sum expericence and put my dipolma to good use..? i realli had no idea.. sum part of my mind tell mi tat.. chances dun comes twice.. but the other part of my minds.. tells mi y worries.. to go in SPF so fast.. as there is kinda no turning back.. or should i say but den to turn back is kinda late..

this evening after some new yr dinner.. buffet with william they all.. i received a letter from spf.. guess most of the graduate should have receive ba.. is respark mi a force to take a pen and register immediately.. but.. should i? hmm.. it has always been my dream since young to be a plice women no matter wat other sae abt the profession.. whether is it the politics side of view, women being class differently kind of view.. but to mi.. everywhere also have this kind of unwanted situation is jus wat kind of perceptives we look at it.. since is sumthing i realli wan.. if it realli happens to mi.. i definitely have a way to turn thing around.. is jus wan or dun wan.. hmm.. since is kinda hard for parents to support daughter in this kinds of profession but sumhow things is jus the oppsite for mi.. mum and dad is realli very supportive.. every now and den ask mi whether if i signed up.. when my interview... woah.. i guessed they knew wat's the best for mi.. yesh... perhaps cos since young they seen the active side of mi. from volleyball player.. a pri sch ger.. bathing under the sun for 3 yrs.. den to a police cadet .. to a corporal, a sergent, a staff sergerent den cliching the "best unit cadet".. is sumthing that realli marks my secondaary sch life.. den poly.. underthe adventure seekers.. grow alot.. mentally and physically.. undertake lots of adventure trips.. even to the furtherst mount kilimanjaro.. it was more then jus a mountain climbing experience.. a process that makes u stronger, weep with ya fellow teamates.. and most of all overcome my fears... yep... perhpas tat y.. they are so encouraging for mi to undertake police asap.. hopefully i can get in and i must.. yesh... so should i sign up.. now? hmm think i should before the chance is over.. yeah...

perhaps to commit in this profession i might lost out chances in contributing for gakkai.. but i believe.. no mateter wat is always the heart that counts.. the heart to come out for meeting will nt stop mi even if i am not on shift ba.. cos to mi.. sumtimes it realli lies on ya thinking.. if u wan to go for u.. u can definitely drag ya body and do more for members.. ids jus wether wan or dun wan.. wan, do it good.. if nt dun do at all.. yeap.. hopefull if i ever got in.. i will pray for.. a good schedule such that it will nt affect most of my gakkai activites.. cos to mi.. gakkai and life and dream are inseparable.. is is jus part of a life cycle.. (",)....

above is the pic.. which shows the letter that is receive from spf.. haha

Glen goh bdae.. on 25 dec..celebration..

Picz.. wif the bdae.. boi.. glen goh...

Mass grp pic.. can u spot mi?

pic taken wif snowman.. oppx..

cheex.....~!

our fitness dae...

haha.. todea had a great jog.. jog around the campus one big round.. it was really shiok .

has been a long time since i ran so much esp with siewhoon, and my nrpsd comrades..

haha.. was swmiming before jogging wif jay, xue, sihui.. haha fun fun.. when shall be our next fitness dae.. oppz..

haha had a minor celebration for jaymie cos her bdae on the 25.. yeah.. see how good we are to u.. haha..

kk.. the rest shall be explain by the pic below.. enjoy.. viewing!!

its HER bdae...

taken at KAP...

urgh.. we are all shag esp Jaymi.. PRO..

Active siewhoon.. shag xueyun..

urgh.. i m having a headach!!..

finalLy get mY picx.. UP..greaT 2 dae!!

yeah finally able to exercise my wisdom to upload the pic to my blog.. thanks to eelYnn yea.. my help line while loading the picx.. sum of them realli nt in sequence sia.. hehe.. but that for a 1st attempt like mi i think nt bad le.. oppx.. "zi kua".. now waiting for dayy to fetch my laptop beofre i go work.. let see. tis work working only 4 dae.. have been sumtime since i last work so mani i mean.. moren than two dae.. oppx.. yeah time to earn more for chinese new yr.. festive sales again!!

bro result gonna releasesed soon let hope he score good grade given the fact he dun realli study at hm..haha.. k la.. gOod luck yea.. hmm past few dae.. has been really packed.. and fulfilling fri eveining had our spirit booster and skit rehearsal at underpass den had dinner together ..

Nrpsd dinner!! cool.. @bt.timah.. den SH fetch us to bp plaxa while we waited and buy a cake for xinyi surprise bdae.. haha.. is was realli cool had dialogues and small talk.. so mani things we discovered.. oppx.. pakan a lil with da huiling guess she found out we giving xinyi a suprise so she released her rather early after their dinner at steak house.. she indeed had a pleasant surprise.. den tooks lots of pic at her hm.. den left around 11 plus.. sharon came my hm stay.. cool.. got ppl pei wo thru the night!! haha.. ok den was sat le met xinyi for morning breakfast at 8 supposedly but i guess she woke up let so we changed to 9.. had a set a at wang jiao.. KopI loti cafe.. den accompany sharon to take bus hm.. den i made my way to xinyi hs for her to get prepared and stuff.. haha she realli took a long time to get ready so tat we could den go over to siewhoon hs for "happY meaL" making.. is was cool.. when we reaching machiam like factory sia.. all the table packe with fillet and burger. haha den saw jaymie and xueyun as they jus back frm s and w.. had a hell loads of fun.. working.. nice.. had our morning gongyo together (my second time for morning gongyo)..when shall be the next hapPy meal making time?

kk.. den we made our way to tbsc le.. met bin bin on the bus 963, ntu ywd iic den.. off we headed to the pantry to settle our burger.. and proceed for the mtg.. the meeting was cool.. nice program.. esp the puppet part.. realli cute and entertaining , the turnout rate was cool too almost packed the whole tbsc hall.. den was chingay time.. had dinner..and there we made ur way to kallang!!

Let the pic do the talking.. will post sume of it up again.. gtg.. dad arriving.. haha

self -high even Before the start of chingay spirit booster..

a great field Visit to BlooMberg..

yea.. todae is reall a cool cool dae.. everything goes cool todae.. oppx wat am i say saying.. haha tis morning wake up le.. took care of the 1 yr sis.. haha she is becoming more cuter each dae.. yep.. den had my branch.. mum bought from market.. yea. den happen to tok abt SSA and nikken.. discusiing how to bring the topic to my aunt abt nikken cos she now follow them le.. is really a challenge for us now.. hopefully we hav the oppournity to tok to her.. cos she stay wif my grandma.. at muar.. hmm and we go back onli thrice a year.. so hmm.. yep.. den mi get prepared to meet peiyoke at raffles for our port folio management , a trip to bloomberg on level 21 at capital sqaure.. omg.. it is realli a great eye opener..

u get to see the prices of corporate bonds and stuff, prices.. oh my.. then was asked to choose our tag when we reach level 21.. den was brough to the pantry.. tat its the highligh i can nv imagine.. their pantry realli dun look like pantry look more like super market but neater de.. jus like.. those seven eleven kind.. we are ask to take the drink ourselve.. i too nescafe lattee can de.. haha my friend took perrier.. and there are like chocalate everywhere in their respective coloum realli dun look like pantry omg.. more like living room.. then there are like screen at our siting are for us to view stock even if during rest time.. so cool rite?

yea then was brough in to the bloomberg training room whereby one person is given a set wif two terminal.. two wor.. my gosh den is like the mouse can link from one to the another.. den was rewarded wif a financial magazin bloomberg pencil and note book.. haha nice nice.. love the pencil cos bright luminous orange with the woor BLOOMBERG on it... yea.. the course ended aroun 5 but we stayed there till 6 cos too mani thing to find for our project and when the trainer is teaching jus now dun have much time to search for the statistic and final figure we wanna.. haha end up.. stay till we found it.. cool... sumhow.. doubts is half clear.. left the practical part for the project.. left with atia, nur, thiong hien, yifeng den of we went went around taking pictures yea.. nice fountain jus beside the building.. so yeap.. next stop was STARBUCKS!! y? cos they giving put free regulaer drink yesh!! is free.. from 5-7

so we went to the nearest de.. haha to our surprise the queeu is nt really tat long.. haha.. den nur help mi ordered a caramel frapucinno.. nice drink.. cos she more pro in statrbucks.. old staff neh.. haha.. yep.. enjoy the drink alot.. and thiong order rumba frapacinno.. nice... den mi went off first cos need to rush to marina for work lo.. at 6.. and i m already late haha.. but is ok.. cos my collegue dun mind working for mi too.. so nice hor.. yeah tat is "venezia" family.. whaha.. cool work was cool saw alot of our age grp de.. in prom grown.. should be going for pan pascific hotel de ba.. mei nu and jun nan.. haha.. yea.. den jus finish toking to dear abt tmr outing.. oppx.. hey i do admit u realli noe mi insside out yea.. ok la u win.. haha.. realli glad to have met him in my life.. thanks dear!!

Cute SweEt storY

once
there is this very old couple

at this cold and rainy day
they hold hands
and walked slowly into macdonalds
then as the walk in
the held many admiration from many other young couples seating around
then they walk to the most end of the mac
and sat down
the little old man then proceed to the counter
:
and bought a hamburger meal
then as he went back to the table
he carefully unwrap the hamburger
and split the hamburger into half
and he carefully counted the french fries

:
and divide them equally among him and his old wife
that brough many attention from other people
:
they were amazed at how this 2 coupld shared their food
they were so loving
and the old man would take a sip on the drink
:
and the old woman would take her turn and take a sip
just then 1 young man would not take it any longer
he went up to this couple
and offered to buy the old woman another hamburger meal

but the old man declined his offer

she said:" thank you, but im used to sharing"

and the man walked away

howevery the young man decided to give it another try and went up again

then he noticed that the old woman was not eating anything
she was seating tht
there
watching her husband eat
leaving her share on the tablle
the young man confused
walked up and asked:" why dun I buy the food 4 u?"
the old woman
again said
I’m used to sharing
no thanks
after some time
the young man was very confused as the old woman still haven start eating
so he decided to ask her
why are u not eating your food? what are you waiting for?
the old woman looked at him
and she said.

"THE TEETH":
Publisher note: It is a lil humourous at the end.. but dun u find it rather sweet and cute if it were to happen to us when we reach tat age..

GReaT dAe!!

yox!!.. todae woke up super ultra late.. guess wat.. i woke up at 11.. when my tutorial was supposed to start at 11.. den no choice bath le.. pia down to take cab.. use back the bag i used yesterdae.. no time to transfer..ahah. the fare cost mi 6.70.. argh.. pain.. heart, pocket pain.. hmm but no choice cos i dun wann miss sally chew tutorial as it is on dinning ettiteqe.. nice module.. nice teacher.. i have statrted to like her even if last sem when she taught us bix ettit shw seem to be a more cold teacher in IS. However tis sem she is realli different and funny teacher.. will joke and get serious at times.. her sense of dresing is sumthing very different.. forever so professional, the way she tok, gestures and taught us more on interatcive business skill is sumthing worth.. rewarding.. hmm.. LOVe IBS, RMGT, IB, ECD alot.. all the module!!

yeah.. den during our two hr break go convention there touch up on our ecd report.. project session was fun.. cool!! den we even touched on the date we wanna go for blood donation.. oh ya.. before the IBS tutorial end. mrs chew ask for volunteer for the shot again.. yeah.. i of cos i volunteer for it.., even call GK to got for the shot.. but all my class mate nt free.. hmm ani takers wanna try? whaha.. is on 10 dec 9am -3pm.. hehe.. jus nice is CR1 ygm.. tat night i guess..

After project.. went to lt 45 to have our.. IBS lecture.. cool.. tis time was henry koh.. a reall fnyy, passionate laecture.. whi seem to tell us everything he noes.. enjoyed his lect thoroghly!! one part i remember was super funny..he was go through the 1st lecture notes slide.. which is nt wat we have for todae lect material.. out of curiosoity i coppied down all the points as it is essential for my data gathering call.. i feel.. so i hapily copied down.. den xinyi frm 02 i think pat mi frm behind telling mi is from week one de notes.. i was like.. huh.. realli? cos i miss lect one.. so i took out my IBS file, took a quick glance .. oh my.. is realli 1st week material.. out of curiosity i let him tok finish le, raise up my hand and ask him to clarify reagarding the one he is teaching no.. and the one we supposed to know by the end of the lect.. guess wat.. he commented:" wah tat a good one! everyone lets give her a round of applause!" i was like diao.. damn paiseh.. cos i was jus asking wat most of my class mates wanna ask.. jus tat i m more daring at that time to raise hand out of 100 plus student.. including student from red campus.. (3 dae.. poly attachment student from sec sch)..

haha.. den after lect supposed have NTU talk de.. but is like hello.. NTU, busincess.. whu will stay? end up..half the lect is empty.. perhaps if SMU come.. cfm full house.. but oppx.. is ntu lo.. guess they should got for enginerring.. whaha.. aniway i was the most whu left, left with seeyan to rush down town to work, take over sophia and lyn shift.. todae have been traveling on cab.. whaha.. den work till 10.30.. working wad great met funny friendly customer.. guess wat sensei sae is really true.." change for the enviroment and nt the enviroment change u!"--- this statement will be reflected in the stories later.. given by....

NICE STORY.. Credit by Gk..
long ago
there is this little mouse
and 1 day this mouse was on his way home and saw a genie stucked in a bottle

the mouse went and saved the genie
the genie was glad and said he would help the mouse no matter what
so the mouse told the genie
I want to become a cat
so that I will not be chased by a cat again
:
and the genie granted the mouse's wish
after sometime
the cat came back
and this time
the cat wanted to become a dog
because the cat was chased by a dog
:
the genie granted the cat's wish again
and after a month
the dog came back
and the dog said he wanted to become a lion
cuz he was chased by a lion
and he went off as a lion
after some time
the lion came back
this time the lion wanted to become a human
cuz he was almost killed by a hunter
the genie turned the lion back into a mouse
and told the mouse
no matter what u become
u would still be afraid of something
:
because
deep down u
:
u are still a lion with the of a mouse
unless u change yourself there is nuttin I can help u
-the end-

touching , meaningful song...

yoz.. rmb the previous post i was saying that i had fallen inlove with steph sun song on
<<>>.. it was actualli introduced by our dear sisi.. when tat time we had our anniversary night on sat after yiheng daimokukai at my house.. tat night was realli well spend.. enjoy myself alot... cos therewas realli lots of interaction among our 29th council.. so glad tat we can seen one naother again after half a yr.. i guess.. haha.. ur are a huge bunch of funny ppl.. hmm.. den got.. 3rd for lucky draw..nv in my life.. but i prefer the bolster to the table.. haiz.. so heavy.. luckliy wenfeng they all got car, van.. so still ok..after ann night went bugis breeko to chill, order a tropical drink.. opps. is low fat milk belended with strawberries.. yep.. den chatted for a while.. look thru all the pic we taken jus now.. soon everyone started to leave as most of us are tired after a long dae.. soon i took asman car.. back to somerset to take NR home.. whaha.. mi. sisi, ariff took NR back.. to sisi hs.. initalli wanted go hm de.. but she worried abt my safety den ok lo..i stay in her room.. whaha.. realli had a wuality chat tat night.. from police.. life.. to perception of regrets.. den to relationship..tata the most juicy part..felt uterlly upset when she shared .. the process.. esp i had sorta been thru wif them since i was a member they are already a couple.. haiz.. realli tok a lot.. the more she tok.. the more i felt upset.. dunno la.. to think.. sumone whu has always been a mr nice guy to mi yet.. thinking is such narrow minded.. and has hurt my dear friend is jus like a knife slashed across my chest..den as she shared.. i became more awake.. den she also let mi listen to the above song.. tat is the song she passed by.. when she was down and venting her anger on shopping.. I cried.. when i was listening.. i jus can't helped it.. see lah.. sisi wat good deed u done.. haha.. aniway.. i am glad to be able to share some of ya sorrows.. rmb i always be there.. ever.. since then i have been looking for this song.. share share with your the lyric..


- steph sun

i don't wanna lose you,
but i don't wanna use you
just to have somebody by my side.
and i don't wanna hate you,
i don't wanna take you,
but i don't wanna be the one to cry.
and that don't really matter
to anyone anymore.
but like a fool i keep losing my place
and i keep seeing you walk through that door.

but there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know
it's your heart you can't trust.
there's a reason why people
don't stay where they are.
baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

now, i could never change you,
i don't wanna blame you.
baby, you don't have to take the fall.
yes, i may have hurt you,
but i did not desert you.
maybe i just wanna have it all.

it makes a sound like thunder,
it makes me feel like rain.
and like a fool who will never see the truth,
i keep thinking something's gonna change.
and there's no way home,
when it's late at night and you're all alone.
are there things that you wanted to say?
do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where i used to lay?

and there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
there's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.
baby, sometimes, love...
it just ain't enough.
oh...

LivinG lifez w/o regrets!!

wake up at 8am in the moring left hom at 8.45 went over to my kid, weiliang house for tution.. this time round mi brought a dinosaurs book with mi, hoping to spike his interest in interacting wif him.. IT works!!.. we tok abt power ranger.. and i even let him try a bit of my lime juice.. as i was teaching him on fruits last lesson.. was supposed to bring mango there as he had nt tried it before.. but shop to early nv open.. haha.. he commented it was nice and wan mi to bing more next time.. haha so happi.. finally he is nt scared of mi le.. and he even wanna mi leave the book behind for him to read... wah!! was realli beri happy.. den waited 5 min for the bus to sch.. reached school aroun 1059.. 1 min before i was considered on the dot.. find my seat and quickly prepared for the lecture.. the lecture was cool.. jeff wu.. shared sum reallu stupid funni joke.. haha.. yep.. den after lecture rush up to level 3 to rehearse our part.. for the presentation for IB>. though was a lil unhappy sum where.. as nt all were in one mind.. rmb one actualli sae i was agressive.. am i realli? or am i jus purely excited.. haiz.. dunno.. well.. ppl perception is n t sumthing i could contrl.. haiz.. so perhaps i will be a bit less "agressive"? haha.. The result of the presentation was good!! yeah.. den went to atrium pass my dad com.. and sat in the atium ewas abt to sat down when i noticed kenny.. so invited him for my ygm as well as we started on tmr tutorial.. it was cool.. hmm.. i met cindy ( my member) ard 5 plus.. at atrium.. haha . went to sic to pass francis the YGM ticket.. for him to invite his friend..soon nelly came.. we went campus deli to grab a bite.. soon lyn arrive in sch too.. and we mad our way to club hpuse.. only to see tat.. there are more instructors den members todae.. oh my.. as the three of us is nt in physical attire.. we left soon after,.. a while.. and we met benjamin down the stairs.. haha he is so hardworking com all the way to NP to study as well as running with jean and asman.. cool.. too bad we no attire if nt cfm join them.. haha but we made a deal le.. every mon is our ex-council.. training time.. wah.. whahah.. to train for the next expedition to tahan in april as well as for my 3rd attempt for napfa!.. the visit to qneens way was good saw alot of nice variet of shoes ranging from casual to sprot wear.. and i fall in love with an addidas sneaker.. it is jus so different frm the rest.. after walking for sum stores realised tat there is not much price different..lyn and mi set on the same shoe.. whaha but is 141 after discount acsis de.. oppx..den we went up for dinner at MAC.. diner was great luff alot during the tok.. when toking back abt js , tasic, aos, updating nelly abt all this three event when she is nt around.. yep..din noe times pass so fast.. even before i could finishe it was 10.30 liao.. so we made our way back.. no 147 in sight.. den it came after 2 min.. den miss my bus 75 cos.. was supposed to flag it.. but i tot there is ppl alighting o i did nt wave lo.. end up.. zroom.. it zoom past mi.. nelly was so worried tat i no bus back even volunteered to pass mi 5 bucks to take cab back.. luckily haven took cos it cames jus after a 15 min.. and as the bus past my the back gate.. darren, aiaha boared up the bus.. yep.. had a great tok with guo zhen.. hehe.. okok... tat all no.. super tired... gtg orh le.

a dae full of surprise

* a great cocktail party in school for IBS module*

*an enjoyable, tiring, but fun experience in fliming to promote sch of BA to the secondary sch student by experienced production crew!!*

This are the satement which we got to speak to the camera at blk 72 level 8.(one of the big room...haha

1) Have u got wat it takes? (dry run 1, mock 1, rolling 2 + 4 tries for the takes to be successful!! yipee!).

2) Zest and Passion, BA got the winning drive! (dry 1, mock once actual 2)-----> getting a bit better..

3)Come Join us.... ! (this is much more simple--->dry 1 actual take 1).

4)Make BA the school of business and accountancy your first choice! (.. this is coooolllll it took mi 5 min to memorise the phrase.haha.. (---->dry 2 ,actual take 2)----

*End at 6.30* after the take at level three the car park.. amazing we saw the inital D car.. hard to believe but all of the crew and my friend saw it.. --one in a million chance ba co i tot the car is only used in the production for the sake of the INital D movie..*

*Rush to work at 7.30.at marina square.. supposed to reach by 6.. oppz.. the night was ok .. miss my dinner.. cos no body to tend the shop.. and loss of appettie to eat.. oppz* ( still the night was great esplande was beautiful... shall faster pray for a digi cam so tat i could take down all beatiful shots.. rather den jus wat i write.. *praying hard for one by the end of christmas*.. peeps u noe wat to do? haha jus kidding..

Tat sums up my dae =)...... hapPi!!!

FuiFilLmEnT oF REaLISaTIon

p.s: i'm gonna change the stlye of writting now.. after sum comments our our dear ****n. u noe whu u are.. aniways thanks..
Synopis of the past two dae 17-19
Past two dae on fri was great , had tutorial at 11 den wnet uphill and down hill to borrow laptop from sharon .. thanks ger.. cos lazy to bring mine from home as we having a nrpsd dialogue in sch wif all our beloved mambers and friends . Den reach tutorial room mi over shot cos i was late by 5 min.. hurry set up lappy and prepared myself for the tutorial.. the tutorial was cool cos we learn how to use excel to compute our portfolio geometric mean and stuff.. beside mi was lorrain she help mi a lil.. great thank to her men.. hehe..and May too.. thanks ger..soon after tat was break time went over to bt.timah to have duck rice with sum of our class guys as usual our big clicks.. haha.. had a good tok and quantity lunch.. soon we all took cab backfor our lecture at 3 . L

Lecture was great though mrs tsang delayed a bit due to our noisy ness in terms of adminstration and stuff.. basically sch was great!! perhaps my life condition were quite high ba.. felt realli good tat dae.. haha though the sun was nt doing a kind deed but still it does not hampers my mood of later dialogue session cos is sumthing i had been looking forward after much oreparation at xinyi house on thurs.. after our dinner with weilun and sharon and N.Y.D.C.. great bake rice yea? mi first time eat too.. but glad i din make a bad recommendation.. nice hanging out with ur !!thanks alot for the accompany!! though i wanderalone at shaw for around half an hr tat dae.. before meeting up with sharon.. but by wandering alone.. i learn to love the ppl ard mi.. trying to look things at a diff angel.. bordeom sumhow dun bothers mi.. dunno why.. perhaps knowing that i be meet my comrades.. makes mi feel great. so tat dae manage to buy the bdae pressie for cai..

Back to fri.. when i reach the light house(underpass) eelynn. siewhoon. s.h,x.y francis were already there.. almost mistaken francis for terry cos he was wearing a shirt.realli look like terry lo... from the back haha..ok.. den we began by games at 6. follow by wan xiang encouragement and dialogue and i did the rounding up.. initally nt mi de was the iic .. den last min sae they got to leave early.. mi realli stunned sumhow the absence of iic mi suddenly seem weak.. but still i noe i got no choice i was like.. huh.. mi round up? ok.. i told myself ok" tis time for me to show my stand alone spirit!"" within the one hour.. mi realli craaack my head keep thinking how can i do a good round up cos.. it stats well and i wanna end it well in order nt to waste the other cic effort in preparing for this dialogue. actualli i onli did wat ever i can so suddenly siewhoon pass mi the picture for my dialogue on "happiness" den i used it to con clude too lo.. haha.. luckily the effect was ok.. manage to blend in.. by my one pieace one pieace english whaha.. really a big clap of all those whu took their time off to join us..!! *hugz*!! and all my fellow cic ur did a good job cos i have been trying to cut and stop the dialogue to round up at 7.30 but i could see the dialogue is proceeding very well..one of it was terry he realli surprised mi.. on surface he seem to be co hold it cool cool de dun tok de.. yet.. he told mi he need a few more min to share.. realli happi! tat how a dialogue should be.. will feed back for more dialogue.. haha in tat way we realli strengthen each everione of our bond.. rite? perhaps jus a fridae gathering ba.. den whu ever who need a person to tok too or encourgaement.. friedae. 6.30 light house waiting for u!!.. opps.. have been writting alot.. pardon of ani reader of mine.. ha

Ok next i will go into todae!!.. yeah this is realli a long post i guess.. longest in all my entries? haha.. sat morning was realli tired.. does nt have enough of sleep..mental challenge to teach my pr1 kid at 12.30... cos mentally i m realli tired.. but deep down is my pay day so die die also must drag myself to go.. and do my best.. so yeap.. i break thru!! i did nt doze off for even a min.. nv close my eye.. cos while he was writting i was looking thru his other assignments and cracking jokes wif him.. dunno how i find the energy.. i believe is the effect of the morning gongyo tat i did after bathing.. it has sort of awake mi lil.. thus elevate my life condition.. so end the tution den was crossing the bridge to took a bus.. 963 a bus came.. i boarded it.. guess wat.. i sensed sumthing wrong when it gos the PIE way.. cos if 963 should be woodland.. den loong time din took to woodland le tot mabbi they changed route..sumhow i sensed sumthing wrong after that.. immediately turn to an aunti beside mi.. ask her if this is 963 she was like no, is 960 to bugis.. wah.. tat comment.. is like water splashes on my face arghhh.. i took the wrong bus and to make things worse i m already late le.. if U-turn and go back it will take another 20 min.. i be supper late.. for the marine parade duty for sensei exhibition but tat seem the one way out..

Tis time round, mi screened carefully at the bus number making sure nuthing goes wrong and i stopeed msging too.. realised i can't multi task well when lack of slp..yep.. reach woodland around 3.10.. was terribly sorry siewhoon and sharon gotta wait so long..sorry ger.had dialogue on the bus . reach the exbition area.. marine parade CC i was realli impressed by sensei works.. and was really touched by sum of the passer by impression on sensei art pieace. most of them was sorta impressed and remarked that such art work is pieaces of real genius art piece. sum even wanted to buy the art pieace. It change my perception tat actually singapore do have alot of ppl whu will appreciate good works.. cos i have always tat that life is so hectic but.. it proves mi wrog.. it cought mani ppl attention even families.. one i actualli rmb they wrote in their impression was somthing like" the one who do this is genius, the one who put the poetry together is a great genius". tat all i can rmb.. the menaing is sumthing similar.. i was realli impressed by this even an outsider remarked abt it.. how can we nt feel touched and fortuate that sensei is still wif us in this era when we are still able to see him ..

Siewhoon went to buy dinner for us den mi and sharon was busy confirming our member for our tmr mass home visitation.. whaha the process of reaching out was realli good!! expeecially when they are free and availble for us to go their house to have a dialogue .. esp for the 111 target for our nrpsdywd!! so the day wnet after doing sum oacking up of stuff and one funni thing happen.. when the packing up was almost done*luff*.. sharon.. u noe wat i m hinting yea.. oppz.. ok.. so there we went hm in cab as for our poor ger.. she took 16 back hm.. long journey but i guess u made realli full use of it rite.. haha.. came home and watch FULL house Korean SHOW.
**LOOKING FORWARD TO TMR**
P.s gotta meet 6.30 at BP plaxa means.. 5.30 got to wake up..... sobz.. great challenge

heyz.. New Daez!!

yozz.. hows everybody.. tis feel dae have rather been rountine.. ok eith tutorial or lect let mi see i guess i been skipping 3 lect in the past two dae.. ultra tired and feel abit sick lo.. haiz.. oh ya happi birthdae charlene..i m sure tis birthdae will be super memorable rite?? of marx gesture.. woo.. so sweet.. how i wish mine could be half like him.. haha jus kidding.. happi for ya..oh ya.. now update first in case tmr no energy to update cos i be going sentosa.. for wat leh.. tanning la.. if nt see rock? whaha yep.. with my cream of crops.. followed by shopping with sharon san.. and dinner.. den hmm.. *surprise* for mi to know for ya to find out.. guess tmr wil be as usual packed.. as for fri we having put nrpsd dialogue.. excited.. whaha.. oh my hmm guess s tis week is realli packed to the brim.. oh my.. as for next week i haven submit my schedule to sophia.. cham ar.. dunno work wich dae.. cfm thurs is out i be having napfa.. fri meeting dear.. mon tue wed? haha nt sure la.. see how it goes.. but feel like worjking sat.. cos is the only dae i can work long hrs.. haiz.. see how ba.. oh.. recently i guess i have fallen in love with landy song.. the "zu wo sheng ri kua le".. haha.. nice nice.. it has been in my ear.. since i guess 2 dae ago.. haha..even on 93.3 it was playing.. oh.. guess if ani guy ever sang mi tat song cfm will be like william fried.. sho sae" melt diao" haha.. though nt realli sure.. wat the lyric but sounds pleasing can le.. hmm.. sian another week gone.. so fast four week le.. must pia project le.. haha.. k la i blog till here see tmr got new update ma.. hehe

humph.. life is??

humph.. had been sumtime since i last blogged.. perhaps nt much exciting things happen so din blog ba.. hmm.. recently alot of things had been runing thru my mind.. things are no longer the same animnore.. perhaps it has been even more complicated.. yesh the subject of human.. the sense of feeling when u felt really shity at times.. words tat u say dosen't seem to be understood and appreciate.. actions tat i have done made mi look as if it is redundant.. i may nt voice or express anithing.. but deep down.. whu noes i m nt hurt inside.. can't ur just step out of ya own world to look at other ppl.. hated the feeling when being viewed as transparent.. where is the huma revoulution ur always mention? perhaps.. yep.. i m too sensitive.. making a fuss out of this.. but i am jus sad.. when times.. i have been trying to keep up wif my pace of life.. toking to u yet u cut me off by diverting ur attention.. issn't this the body language that tells mi u r nt interested u seem to care for sum others then ur old friend whu been wif u thru thick and thin.. argh.. seem tat i m complaining abt wats happening.. perhaps before i even complain should chant.. for my wisdom to think things thru.. argh.. i hate growing up.. have to face wif so mani responsibilites, problem and tropuble.. but i got no other choice.. well,,, jus live wif it ba. haiz.. next week schedule i guess is full but mi realli wanna sign up for the kick boxing lesson haha.. is on every tue. statrs next week.. summore so near my hs.. ok.. hmm.. yep.. guess next tue, fri and thurs is kinda book.. oh ya sat too got ann nite.. troubled of wat to wear sian.. haha.. perhaps will get my dear to help mi choose outfit.. but i kinda toght tis month.. lend 200 to my mum, 100 to dear.. now left with 100 plus to survive.. must realli scrimp and save.. still got so mani friend birthdae coming.. oh my... haha.. hmm.. shall see how it goes ba.. hope mum able to retune mi the money soon.. haha.. as for dear de.. hmm i gues she can onli return mi next month.. so hai.. by den mabbi become bad debts.. haha.. k la.. tmr having two tutorial and lect.. guess i be skipping the lect.. ultra boring.. den change to giving tution to cover for my thurs sentosa outing with my class of babes ba.. hehe.. this whole week is realli packed.. oh my.... i m tired!!!

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REceollectIOn... Nice.. mails..

As i was surfing the net, look thru all those mail my friend send mi.. suddenly a sense of huang jui flooded my mind.. i patienly re-click all the mails.. and it brought mi back all the memories again.. hmm.. though mi m,ay be a strong perosn on the surface.. actualli mi nt realli de strong de.. still will break down and cry if there is a need too.. as dfor sentimental... haha no one can beat mi... few letters of the past could make mi weep.. hmm.. tis are sum of the mail.. i found it realli coo to share with all of ya.. haha.. hope it enters ya life too..


This is a love letter from a boy to a girl....
However,the girl's father does not like him and
want them to stop the relationship......
So, the boy wrote this letter to the little girl.
1 "The great love that I have for you
2 is gone, and I find my dislike for you
3 grows every day. When I see you,
4 I do not even like your face;
5 the one thing that I want to do is to
6 look at other girls. I never wanted to
7 marry you. Our last conversation
8 was very boring and has not
9 made me look forward to seeing you again.
10 You think only of yourself
11 If we w! ere marr ied, I know that I would find
12 life very difficult, and I would have no
13 pleasure in living with you. I have a heart
14 to give, but it is not something that
15 I want to give to you. No one is more
16 foolish and selfish than you, and you are not
17 able to care for me and help
18 I sincerely want you to understand that
19 I speak the truth. You will do me a favor
20 if you think this the end. Do not try
21 to answer this. Your letters are full of
22 things that do not interest me. You have no
23 true love for me. Good-bye! Believe me,
24 I do not care for you. Please do not think that
25 I am still your boyfriend."

So bad..... However, the boy told the girl before to
"READ BETWEEN THE LINES", meaning only to
read 1.3.5.7.9.11.13......
So. Please read it again!....it's so smart n sweet...
Interesting right??

Another New touchiNg link Tat my Pal send mi..glad to review it again... it melted mi.. hope it melted u too!!
http://wang-yuan.nease.net/wygs.htm

Reformatted my Com!!.. A nEW liFe!!

hey dude.. its been awhile since i last blogged yeah? haha of co.. la.. com short tempered hard to pen down my thought here... hmm.. hoildays ending soon.. seem like this one month plus has been rather fullfilling.. busy withVenezia work, tution, sd mtg.. and also.. our.. nuaing cum leisure time... haha.. let sing.. so far in this hoildayed.. managed to sing twice of KTV, watch 4 shows althogether, moscow street, jing zhi yu nian, one more chance and the maid.. whaha.. cool yeah.. den hmm.. went to slesgie to rtry their ever soft bean curd.. finnally afr=ter so mani attempt and urge to go.. had.. steamboat at a different place in bugis, had numerous dinner at pasta mania.. hmm.. and of cos.. been to bf.. house to accompany him and watch sum of his thailang training clips.. how they went thru their survival lesson.. cool.. took alot of stuff frm his home.. whaha thumbdrive, distillution tablets for next time use in camps.. hmm..yep.. ehaha..life is realli enriching till.. i have nt met up with amanda.. yet.. a good friend whu have been with mi ever since pri 3.. of cos.. this one month gave mi lots of up and down... to learn to take and give.. haiz.. guess nuthing in the world is perfect u jus got to sacrifice sumthing for other things..realli had an enjoable.. hoildae.. though our usual khaki for hanging out.. william is busy.. serving the nation.. but haha.. we shall see one another soon again.. pls dun think tat ya botakl head looks ugly k.. no body.. bothers to luff at u.. though we might.. whaha.. oh ya... btw.. this hoilday.. i and my collegues became closer.. whaha.. yesterdae we even tok abt the plans after graduate.. now venezia.. is demoniamted by.. ngee ann student.. cool yeah.. haha.. two of them is frm npcc last time de... now they CI( cadet onspector)..if onli i went for the CI course.. think i be buddy with them le.. haha but fate still draw us close.. we working in the same outlet, same passion.. and we decided after grad.. give ourself 6 mth grace.. to experence wat life gotta experience such as doing sumthing related to our diploma for 6 mths.. den sign up for police.. haha.. cos at least we get to enjoy before it is too late.. and we shall be in the same plattoon.. whaha..
One of my fav song in NPcc..

Purple light, in the vally
this is where i wan to be
with my dreams, close companion,
with my CI, my buddies and miiiii...


Memories... will still lingers.. and it shall be a reality sooN!!..

BernIce!!!! hASLinDA!!! We will strive to GO in THERE!!! POlice FOrcE!! here we are!!

..feLt InsPirEd..

The Mountain Story

A son and his father were walking on the mountains.
Suddenly, his son falls, hurts himself and screams: "AAAhhhhhhhhhhh!!!"
To his surprise, he hears the voice repeating, somewhere in the mountain:
"AAAhhhhhhhhhhh!!!"
Curious, he yells: "Who are you?"
He receives the answer: "Who are you?"
Angered at the response, he screams: "Coward!"
He receives the answer: "Coward!"
He looks to his father and asks: "What's going on?"
The father smiles and says: "My son, pay attention."
And then he screams to the mountain: "I admire you!"
The voice answers: "I admire you!"
Again the man screams: "You are a champion!"
The voice answers: "You are a champion!"
The boy is surprised, but does not understand.
Then the father explains: "People call this ECHO, but really this is LIFE.
It gives you back everything you say or do.
Our life is simply a reflection of our actions.
If you want more love in the world, create more love in your .
If you want more competence in your team, improve your competence.
This relationship applies to everything, in all aspects of life;
Life will give you back everything you have given to it."
YOUR LIFE IS NOT A COINCIDENCE. IT'S A REFLECTION OF YOU!

ThanKx DuDE...

Hospital Windows

Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room. One man
was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain
the fluid from his lungs. His bed was next to the room's only window.
The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back. The men talked for hours on end. They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation.
And every afternoon when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window. The man in the other bed began to live for those one-hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside.
The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake. Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color of the rainbow. Grand old trees graced the landscape, and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen .
As the man by the window described all this in exquisite detail, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine the picturesque scene.
One warm afternoon the man by the window described a parade passing by. Although the other man couldn't hear the band - he could see it in his mind's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words. Days and weeks passed.
One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to
find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep. She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away. As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.
Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the world outside. Finally, he would have the joy of seeing it for
himself.
He strained to slowly turn to look out the window beside the bed.
It faced a blank wall.
The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this window.
The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall.
She said, "Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you."

HoilDaes..!!!

Yeah.. gues it been a while since i last updated my blog.. haha.. sumone is already bu nan fan wor.. haha ya la.. here i am to pen down my thoughts over the past few weeks.. haha finally is hoildae time.. exam was a tedious one.. as it is my heaviest sem tis sem.. was realli stressed!! but now is all over.. hope can do well.. aniway.. has been kinda.. the same for the past few dae.. guess i gained wt le.. must make use of this hoildae to do more workout.. ahaha.. and sweat all out men.. haha.. oh ya.. btw we also studied ay syc.. and followed by sum wonderful desert and dinner, cum evening gongyo.. studying and chatting was fun in a way too.. haha hope we have more chance to do it often.. yeap.. oh ya.. it benn a long time since i mention abt my bf yea? haha he is surviving well over in thailand.. and he be back on the 26 4am.. haha intend to go received him de.. but 4am wor.. haiz.. he ask mi to arrange with his dad.. but i shy la.. scared scared. haha.. aniway.. we shall see.. hmm.. kinda miss him.. it been like a mth since he left spore.. haha.. wonder did he grow more man ma.. haha.. okok.. hmm.. guess the next few week will be realli busy.. busy Home V, studying in good books, dialogue... etc.. haha life is getting more and more.. enriching... and oh ya.. kotekitai training was great jus got a new frm shimin that she wanted mi to try out on tuba.. whaha.. shiok.. hopefull i fit the month piece.. if nt hopefully i get flute or sax? haha.. mi realli wanna a instrument where i can practise at hm.. haha.. but tuba is cool too.. kinda developed a passion in it.. yeap.. hehe.. so far think tat all for now.. hopefully.. i be ablte to reach my target .. Hm visit.. 10 of my member this month.. whaha.. i believe is possible de.. whaha... chant for mi yea.. i will cahnt too.. whaha btw.. mi will still be working at venexia.. wanna com eat ice-cream?? haha drop mi a call yea.. okok.. gtg leave le.. u peeps take Care!!

EnRicHIng LIfE...

hey peeps.. must have waited long for my entry rite? haha.. life for the past few dae is realli "cong shi".. till the extent that i met up with my comrades.. everydae.. almost... haha realli enjoyed the time planning for chalet, executing though alot fly us kite.. was a lil pissed.. but felt touched too.. cos.. alot of nrpsd ppl turn up.. haha.. we had a great time playing bluff.. LMAO.. was realli a fun experenice.. imagine nt sleeping.. guess it is our 3rd agm at chalet.. hmm it name has been changed to wsm.. weekly sharing mtg.. among the cic.. yeah.. was realli a good one.. imagine we stayed up whole night toking while mi trying to settle sum of my project stuff over at chalet tooo..took alot of pic.. enjoy the accompany yeah.. hehe.. aniway recently we jus had another session.. tis time.. we moved to changi.. exploring the quietness of the other end of singapore.. hehe.. supper at mac was cool.. tok chat.. dialogue is the best part of life.. listening to one another.. makes me a learned man.. yep.. overall it was the best wsm.. and we get to noe a new friend.. glenn.. haha a funny fella.. easy going guy..and we settle at teh viewing mall.. toking non-stop.. first we played the freg game.. tat reall took us a few hrs to finishe playing followed by some dialogue in the middle.. haha.. oh ya before that was chatting and luffing with benny too.. cos he mtging his friend den can't join us in our contagious laghter and crap.. opps.. still rem the paper constipation?? haha is a secret.. opps... yep.. den as the sun shine, we went over to kallang for breakfast.. is was cheap and good.. and after that we all wentt hm and i went to give tution.. wah was realli trying my best to be attentive.. and .. i made it.. yep so slept all my way when back hm at 3.. till 8.. den dad drove us to toapayoh to have crab meal.. haha was realli cool and shiok.. when can we have lobster meal?? HAHA yeap.. the dae end.. and came sundae.. sundae was supposed to meet our nrpsd family memeber to go for GD morning gongyoend up mi was ultura late.. when they end i den reach.. jus in time to catch the encouragemnet by GD.. nt bad after all.. though i was nt able to do my morning gongyo.. yeah.. but the feeling of starting the dae early by receving guidence from GD was a unqiue and special feel in mi.. realli engerxied my dae.. met yiheng , caifong , sharon, william to go for morning breakfast dim sum.. my fave.. den have porridgage.. alot of cold jokes crap in btw.. all becos of williamm.. haha.. make us realli dunno wanna cry or luff..haha.. den we went for friendship mtg.. is was cool... realli admire, salute to the ymd whu did nt give up his faith because things did nt got better but worse.. really admiere ya strong conviction in the gohonzon and that testimonials affirms my conviction strongly with gohonzon too.. den went for my kot training.. training was cool.. jus that i still have a trouble memorise the score.. hmm but i love the "sensei for u".. realli warm and touched..it is jus so tru of the urge and the strong wants to realli see sensei.. and how close he is to us.. my eye was alil wet when they sang it.. haha.. jus too emotional le..so yep the dae was concluded with a pie in BK.. yeah.. and i jua had my daimoku kai.. was a good one i enjoy muyself though was alil crappy in the middle.. benny sae de.. sob sob.. buut haha it helps to cover a bit of the hits up hopefully.. yeah.. okok tmr will be a better dae haha!! going wif cai to RP!!

NatIonAllLLL DaY!!! HaPPi bIRthDAe SpoRE!!

yoyo.. Happi birthdae to u (x3) happi birthdae to Singapore!! haha yep is our annoual birthdae celebrations.. almost every are of singapore.. u could sense the excitement and joyful nedd within them for this event.. sum are as a participant, performers, aude=ience, host.. bla.. SSA HQ1 FD item was selected in one of the item in heartland. HQ2 and 3.. also got their item over at the other ares.. sob...but we dun have.. hmm nonthless lets nt jus based oin this incident to feel upset.. everything ahhpens for a reasons.. haha.. yeap.. so todae mwt up with mok , sharon and cai to discuss further abt our chalet.. end up we din realli tok much but more on dialogue seesion toking anithing under the sun.. frm jokes, to relationship, friends ship.. bla bla.. haha guess it will nv stop nvm.. chalet we continue again.. haha.. yep.. had my favoutie orea mud cake.. hmm is delicious.. haha yep.. end up sharon and mok oth eat cheese cake.. haha.. so we continue our tok crap session.. tok abt our ideal gf, bf.. haha rite.. and sumbody kanna tease by mi wor.. opps.. haha.. okok hmm den guess wat as we are sitting inside the coffee club at the os a bit up there
den got a lot of army contractors in think hahaa lot of truck neh so samazng mi se ele.. mouth eye open wide.. haha.. so cool and reall kind feeling haha.. hmm think that all for todae ba.. last but nt least..I enjoy mei.

MalaYsia.. sale!!.. hurry hurry!!

yeah.. todae.. jus back frm johore.. hahah cos sch sorta half dae.. as we shifted our tutorials to be in the morninig.. so haha after noon no lesson, so mi, serene, and peiyoke.. the three beauties out of the six of us.. haha.. jus kidding.. opps.. went to jB de city square.. haha it was reealli a good shopping paradise.. realli shop till u drop.. too mani different stuff to enjoy.. moreover they having sales sum more.. haha guess tis time realli a great shou huo for us.. mi bough two tops, and a bag.. and enjoy my favourite strawberry milk shake frm mac.. and eating the mr robin.. chicken rice.. haha nice experience.. haha.. yep.. guess everything wnet smoothly and jus returned hm after going to siewhoon hs to get the nestor torres ticket.. for my memer and friends.. haha den chatted for a while or should i sae dialogue.. haha aniway.. enjoy the chat.. yep soon is gtting late so mi and xinyi made a move den while sending her home.. we tok a lot.. abt nrpsd.. hmm yeps... relli hope to see the unity of all ymds cic.. and the Ones.. they have.. yep.. so we must jia you together yeah.. haha.. ya.. guess is a happy dae.. shall end it short simple and sweet.... ciaoz..

GreAt VicToRy FoR cAmpuS coNnEctIon...

yo!! hows everybody? yeah it been long time since i last blog.. like the title mention, campus connection was a great success.. incase ur din noe whu was the organiser, it was alvin khoo, sharon , joycelyn and terry.. haha thumbs up to all of them.. hehe.. yep and all the members whu joined us too.. w/o ur.. campus connection wun be a success.. haha success in the sense that.. almost new faces are seen.. haha.. yea.. hoep more of this activity will be conducted.. to bond with the members.. yea.. hha.. toking abt CC.. guess it was the most memorable time.. and the most memorable cc u can ever experience.. cos y..haha lots of sanshoshima was attackng this event making the organiser.. suffer shock after shock.. but still haha t went smoothly.. w/o much dealy u guys did a wonderful job haha.. yep.. was reali happi with the attendance..as i reallli get to noe a lot of new friends.. new faces, and guess wat i am derrick is suppose to chair the dialogue, ended up i pair with eelynn.. and gk haha.. so sorry derrick.. cos i noe.. if i m there.. u wun tok... then it mi jus mi toking.. jus goving ya this platform for ya to open up and.. take the lead.. hehe.. opps.. yep.. was reallia great one.. before that was a game haha.. the game almost drive us crazy.. realli crazy.. imagine 30 plus ppl trying to stand and move about in like a 50 by 50 cm square.. ahha jus a rough guide.. den after that was the dialogue followed by graduation ceremony... those is a happy time.. but deep with us.. haiz.. realli hate to leave them.. i mean.. after all event, ycf, now they jus gotta proceed to their next chapter of life.. realli feel the pain at that moment.. now think back actualli guess is the right time too ba..i guess everything happens for a reasons.. haha.. yep so sonn after that we sang songa.. all the songs in the song sheet.. and wih our special highlight, we actualli last min bombed one item put up by all cic for the grads.. haha.. actualli is last min throw in de lo.. guess wuold have frighten sum of them haha.. cos food nt ready yet ma.. haha.. yeps.. den guess wat we sang "peng yong".. whaha.. nice and appropriate..for the climax.. yeps then followed by sum mingling ard.. and soon darkenss drawn is time to shoo all members to go hm cos getting late.. so send then to bus stop together with cai and sharon.. haha we so sweet hor.. well.. that always the fact for us the ywds.. haha.. yep.. aniway gues sthat when the happy times draws in.. we stayover.. at west coast.. din noe it is such a wonderful place to stay over night.. derrick, william, john, mi, sharon, alvin,cai fong stayed.. haha.. except for john left at 5

haiz.. though we realli wan him to.. tok and tok non stop

but the time has arrived for him to leave.. hai..haha before the start of the tok.. was actualli eating alvin help us bbq de kehab and hotdog.. ahah all i can sae is.. alvin u changed le.. u r changing for the better.. keep it up.. aniway.. is jus so funni we all find a place and sat down le.. except for john.. he been standing up while toking to us.. as if giving rallies.. haha.. aniway we are all ears open at that time.. yea., den after he left.. we started our AGM.. or should is sae.. asm.. haha annual sharing session.. haha yeah i definitely miss the times over ther.. toking as if there is no end to the world .. i dun wanna a annual one can weekly haha.. yea.. annual is jus too long for mi to look forward too.. how abt a weekly one? yea.. is coming soon..so we watch john back view as he makes his moves.. haiz.. still rmb that time how i used to be biased against him now i jus wished that he will come back nrpsd for more.. haha.. toning in west coast rocks!!..esp with those talkative bunch of us.. whaha... lets spread the virus to other cic as well ok.. haha.. stay tuned!!

sunny sunny night....

heyhey i am back after spending all my fruitful time in sharon house yesterdae.. haha was realli glad with the outcome though like she mention there is sanshoshima along the way like the printer, touchpad milo.. but w'o it it wun be that fun rite? haha yea.. so happi finally we made at least 70 le rite? hehe jia you!! like wat sharon sae yeah i agreed doing sounveir is realli nt easi.. further more is doing for ypur own member each and everypiece is jus so precious that we emphasise on giving the best to them.. haha sumhow can see light le.. that success is coming their way for this coming campus connection.. hee.. yeah.. no worries.. we will help ur till the end.. for we r sisters.... haha yeah.. aniway realli hope there be more weekend.. weekend is nv dull if u spend it wif.. NRPSD comrades.. yeah... oh ya... btw.. the following poem is composed by gk.. haha to acknowledge his effort.. yeah it was realli a nice pieace seem like a conclusion and summary of mi.. thanks dude.. yep but am i realli that good as u write meh.. haha think.. perhaps.. there still stuff i need to improve on ba.. haha.. okok nice poem.. love it lots.. hehe.. thanks.. is the effort that counts.. hehe...

Created by GK
Hui Ling, a emotional being,
She packs herself with lots of feeling,
To her friends, she’s always caring,
To me, she is my friend,
Whose friendship, is never fading,
As problems showers on her like its raining,
Problems like love, Problems like friends,
She remains courageous, and always daring,
And towards the problems, she’s always solving,
Life is tough, working while studying,
Further more Saturday have gym trainings,
She’s so tired; 3am is when she’s bathing,
And when in school, she feels like sleeping,
Sweet thoughts is what she’s dreaming,
And as poems are limited,
This poem about hui ling is never ending…

hey... finally back....

hoho.. haha guess it been rather long since i updated .. haha aniway.. not much stuff happen.. but like sharon.. mi is also packed with meetimg, and more meeting with all my comrades in faith regardless of nrpsd shirt com, or my ywd haha.. past one week have been rather enriching to mi.. last sun , went back for kot training.. feeling kinnda shiok though i guess it has been two yrs since i was back.. mani juniors have grown.. haha den after that went for ycf hq1 post celebration.. watched the video abt our we performed on 2 july.. it was realli great i was so touched.. there is vibrance, vitality that i have nv felt before.. is jus seems tat every one is realli putting all their might in all the step.. such a wonderful show cum memories.. hmmm den after that was supposed to go for the bursting of balloon thingy but cos it started at 4.15 den kinda stuffy so we gave up we went to tm.. to shop a while den have our dinner cum short shirt com mtg.. to touch up.. haha after that mok and francis joined us.. had a good lufff over everything hehe... they are jus so funni... i will nv forget " this is nice, but i dun like it" .. this sentence is powerful neh.. haha.. aniway..i also ccancel my tution and pei them till night den we went hm lo.. haha we discuss abt our chalet too which is on the 21 aug to 23 aug.. haha grp B de and in conjuction with sharon and mok bdae.. haha yep.. turns out realli well.. den on mon.. met up with shirt com to decide and discuss stuff.. haha.. den tue.. was back to venezia at take.. din realise i have nt work for 6 dae.. till i punch card.. haha den hmm.. wed had our ywd cic mtg... hmm the mtg was rather a light one.. but kinda heavy at the end.. cos we realised time is run each moment.. soon all of my iic, cic whu have brougt mi into this big family graduating soon.. i hate to leave them but i know is time for them to advance and spread the wonders of the mystic law... i will nv forget.. the happi momment we have.. thanks to ur.. for wat i m not.. i will definitely nt let ur down but strive to be a good cic, a good daughter, a good friend, a good student.. haiz... sui yue bu rao ren.. as wenqing was saeing his leaving gan yen, tears welled up in my eyes.. is jus so hard to imagaine she is leaving us for good.. and i guess cai fong cried.. could see her tears following while i tried to cover with my jacket... hais.. i will miss ur lots... yep..all the best in all ya endeavours ba.. hmmm sob sob... den on thurs as usual went to work... den ya lo.. todae fri le.. haha jus reach hm nt long after mtg xinyi, shaon and gk in town to shop for sumthing.. opps it must be a bit weird for gk.. aniway hope it turns out great chilling out wif us.. haha yep aniway.. after geeting our stuff had dinner at hans.. had a good luff too.. hehe den went to marina to collect my key for tmr venexia opening haha.. guess it be another busy dae for mi tmr.. after work.. mtging cai.. they all to discuss sounveir.. hehe.. yeap.. stay tuned.. will update more... hehe

a dae Of EmotIonal struggle..wat's real love?

hmm.. actualli todae.. was supposed to wake up ealy to go for the gym.. all due to this cold weather i oversleptt.. and it was rining haeavily den din meet up wif sharon lo.. but guess wat i returned to my sleep...and i slept all the way till 2pm.. my gosh think i will be still sleeping if dear din call mi tis afternoon.. cos we supposed to meet up.. haha.. den jump off frm my bed, bath and a slight breakfast.. broom... off to meet him le.. on my way to the mtging i was beaming with hope.. cos long time din see him le ma.. i mean for a cule.. 1 mth 3 week din see.. is realli unusual.. ha.. aniway.. he was late.. cos he was caught in a jam in PIE.. so i waited lo.. wait wait.. den he appear le.. parked his car in my sch den we made our way to borders cos he wanna get a book called battle tech.. haha.. so ya lo... followed him there.. den he get his stuff.. we sat at coffee bean after that.. den xinyi called.. ask mi if wanna go watch ycf.. actualli i was nt in the mood la.. dunno y.. jus feel that sumthing nt right wif mi todae.. summore mon got paper.. haiz.. so ya lo.. end up pass the ticket to alvin and his friend to watch..den on the way back.. dear was actualli trying to played wif mi.. but i was jus nt in the mood.. cos u see.. he was like trying to played with my arm in the public lo.. and it realli hurts.. i was like so de mad.. all the while on bus din tok to him.. i noe he knew it too.. but sumtime his behaviour jus turn mi off.. nt doing the right thing at the right time.. haiz.. den on the bus alot of though went passed mi i was like thinking.. this relationship seems to be going worst and worst.. the feeling for him seeems to have faded.. wonders if that was becos we benn seeing one another less often.. deep inside mi i dun feel like a gf to him.. i m jus like a friend a pilliar he counts on.. i do need security i do need ppl to pamber mi sumtime.. i hate to be a guy to u.. u agree with mi that perhaps we dun realli undertsnad one another.. u find mi weird in thinking.. u dun seem to noe what am i thinking.. but have u ever tried.. i noe sumtime i did nt explain clear to u wat am thinking.. cos u noe i am jus not realli good in expressing my idea.. sumtime.. i jus feel like breaking down.. y things turns out liddat?? i can realli miss ya at sum time.. and totally hack care of u at times.. y? i nt sure too dun ask mi.. haiz.. sumtime i feel that perhaps a separation for a while might do us both good.. i noe u hate to leave mi.. but sumhow.. i jus feel painful and upset when times after times i got to bear wif my packed schedule and disappointment that i can't meet up wif u.. times after time i got to put up a happy, brave front in front of my friend ensuring that our relationship is still surviving well.. i am tired.. though i still love u.. hope that u do consider.. perhaps.. at least salavage sumthing in the end.. sumthing i am even wondering.. if u have mi in ya heart.. friend or mi cum first.. i do admit u need freedom but.. when even i am free to meet up wif u.. it will nt be a committed full dae.. is either u rushing here and there.. after all my daes of waiting all i get is spending max of 2 hrs or 3 hr wif u..? yes u may sae is my fault for waking up late todae.. i admit.. cos i am realli tired.. i m sorry.. but how abt other times.. hmm.. i am jus lost.. jus feel that i m standing at the edge of a cliff.. not noeing where to turn.. hopefully u understand y am i saeing all this.. is nt becos i dun love ya.. but hoping tat sumthing can be done.. if not.. we shall let fate decide.. i am realli tired..

comMoN TesT Week...

hmm this week is realli kinda mentally hectic for mi.. all becos i have four paper to go.. oh my.. luckily gpt break in btw.. aniway.. the study break week was spend studying wif lyn and gk.. haha so funni was rather a weird combi.. cos we came frm diff course.. yet stil can study till so happily.. haha aniway studing woth both of them was beri beri de fun neh.. haha.. though gk.. will be rather lame sumtime but he definitely makes our dae.. haha cos we get to suan him.. bla bla.. anwiway for the past few.. dae.. realli busy mugging with all my modules.. sian.. can;'t wait for ct to be over.. haiz and this week is the last ycf week.. which means ycf is gonna over soon.. hmm times flies.. all the way frm recruitment till now.. performance is gonna over.. hmm lets hope everyone have achieved sumthing out of it.. yep.. gotta.. statr my revison again.. byee folks.. dun miss mi wor.. haha.. first time ever.. such a short entry.. opps

nice song....

他還是不懂作詞：徐世珍　作曲：王治平　編曲：王治平
要說什麼 杯子都已經空了閉上眼睛心裡下起大雪　天寒又地凍是不是到了　
愛情結帳的時候　只剩下各自買單的寂寞為什麼當我推開門 他沒有來拉住我

＊他還不懂　還是不懂　離開是想要被挽留　如果開口那只是　我要來的溫柔　
他還不懂　永遠不懂　一個擁抱能代替所有　愛絕對能夠動搖我

要用什麼　融化這一片沉默在四周的冷空氣裏歎息　化成煙飄走過去的種種　在
心裏滾成雪球　怕還沒說話淚就會先流愛不是他給得不多　是不知道我要什麼Repeat ＊都是背了太多的心願　流星才會跌的那麼重愛太多　心也有　墜毀的時候

Repeat ＊

在第一時間拯救我

WeNt to WatcH Pre_RecOrdED suPerStAR..

yiyo.. yeah.. todae.. after my work ends ta 5, met up wif GK and lyn .. to watch superstar at media corp.. haha all thanks to doreen whu provide us the chance to watch.. opps.. hah.. so time files reali fast during work.. soon tehy cum find mi.. haha ended up we all wearing whte.. machiam PAPs.. haha.. aniway.. make our way t the taxi stand in a hurry and also to the main road,.. hoping to get sum cab.. but i guess all cab driver dun dare t picks us up.. cos is sumhow illegal to pick passsenger when the taxu stand is nearby.. as commented by GK=grass king.. jin jie? haha watever.. aniway he become our jiemei le.. opps.. hope he dun see tis.. haha.. hmm the show was great except ofr sumthing..the organixer of the show yesterdae sucks.. they issued more then the seat for the tickets.. end up sum ppl whu din manage to egt the seat gotta dsit on the floor.. sian.. luckily for the three of us.. we are at the top.. so.. still ok.. though gotta sit on the floor.. but the view was great we could move freely.. stand up when we wan to and sit when we feel like.. haha aniway... all i could sae is the contestand are realli beri pia in this competition.. they took teh judges comment quiet seriously..haha guessed wat the result teht we predicited are more or less the same standar as the judges.. exp... gk de.. he guess sebestian 28.. he realli 26 sia.. hmm.. power... haha den after the whole show.. we walk out wanting to hail for cab to bring us to jackson place for supper but no cab.. so forget it lo... we took bus after walking and waiting for so long.. hmm.. den on the bus we were sininging..humming.. den i ask lyn to go for the soka audition on aug.. den it spices mi interest too.. shall sign up.. haha.. opps.. yeah.. den we reach toa payoh.. gk saw his friends.. or should i sae his friend spotted him.. haha yep.. went kfc to havethe banito pocket.. nice nice... tok, crap alot.. haha and there was tis time.. Gk face got so red.. oh my.. so funni.. haha.. den hmm.. guess it late le.. so we made our way back.. haha den they sned mi to take train though there is a bustop jus outside kfc for them to take hm.. haha.. guess gk made teh wrong decision in sending mi to train station there... cos after we left.. he immedisaley got.. suan.. haha we suaning him to be our jie mei soon... den he was lik.. i am going to get angry le.. haha den we theased him.. bla bla.. oh poor boy.. but nonethelss.. haha.. a lamer..,cute, funni boi i would sae.. opps. but i am still cuter den u. .haha ... yep..

My analysis.. on Job preParation ..interesting!!!

July 08, 2005 ... haha.. a survey we are supposed to do for job preparation one part of my IS -efficient people management module.. opps.. yea.. here is a better accruate analysis of mi.. haha wat do u think... accruate?? hmm seems kinda to mi..

I am an idealist.. haha
Free report for: Tay Hui lang

Idealists, as a temperament, are passionately concerned with personal growth and development. Idealists strive to discover who they are and how they can become their best possible self -- always this quest for self-knowledge and self-improvement drives their imagination. And they want to help others make the journey. Idealists are naturally drawn to working with people, and whether in education or counseling, in social services or personnel work, in journalism or the ministry, they are gifted at helping others find their way in life, often inspiring them to grow as individuals and to fulfill their potentials.
Idealists are sure that friendly cooperation is the best way for people to achieve their goals. Conflict and confrontation upset them because they seem to put up angry barriers between people. Idealists dream of creating harmonious, even caring personal relations, and they have a unique talent for helping people get along with each other and work together for the good of all. Such interpersonal harmony might be a romantic ideal, but then Idealists are incurable romantics who prefer to focus on what might be, rather than what is. The real, practical world is only a starting place for Idealists; they believe that life is filled with possibilities waiting to be realized, rich with meanings calling out to be understood. This idea of a mystical or spiritual dimension to life, the "not visible" or the "not yet" that can only be known through intuition or by a leap of faith, is far more important to Idealists than the world of material things.
Highly ethical in their actions, Idealists hold themselves to a strict standard of personal integrity. They must be true to themselves and to others, and they can be quite hard on themselves when they are dishonest, or when they are false or insincere. More often, however, Idealists are the very soul of kindness. Particularly in their personal relationships, Idealists are without question filled with love and good will. They believe in giving of themselves to help others; they cherish a few warm, sensitive friendships; they strive for a special rapport with their children; and in marriage they wish to find a "soulmate," someone with whom they can bond emotionally and spiritually, sharing their deepest feelings and their complex inner worlds.
Idealists are rare, making up between 20 and 25 percent of the population. But their ability to inspire people with their enthusiasm and their idealism has given them influence far beyond their numbers.

The Four types of Idealists are:
Healers (INFP) Counselors (INFJ) Champions (ENFP) Teachers (ENFJ)

PosT YCF syndrome..

hey.. guess it been ong time since i last blog.. got so mad wif tis blogspot technical thingy... i lost the entry.. which i meant to post it before ycf.. now guessed i can onli post it on after ycf ba.. hmm.. sad sad... aniway.. yeah!! we finally made it.. so glad so happi.. yet kinda sad too.. cos guess now.. weekdae esp tue and thur is jus so lost.. not knowing wat to do cos during ycf at least we will either meet up on tue or thurs or fri.. now suddenly so mani empty slot.. haix,, kinda realli lost.. but like wat william sae life has to move on.. perhasp is another new chapter of our life.. aniway.. to realli share with u tjis ycf is realli nt one entry is enough there is jus too mani to sae.. hmm.. lets see.. shall start on the eve of ycf ba.. haha guess it was the best and my most intimate dae with my grp B gers and guys.. haha opps.. did i jus mentioned intimate? yea.. haha cos we went down to tsc to chant for the success for sat show while the trainers and backstage, commppl are busy at expo.. .. xin ku ni men le.. aniway.. yea.. i was a lil late for diamokukai.. haha.. aniway we complted the whole daimokukai.. den mok was actualli running thru the steps wif our guys.. haha si hardworking nie.. hehe yep.. den we met outside MTA after the daimokukai.. to finalidse tml mtging time while i and sharon seardch for weixin and other ycf member.. ha the feeling of meeting up again before the real dae was shiok.. summoehwo the man zhui gan is there.. yep.. den opps the guys, noel,mok,yiheng stay over at noel hs.. as fro us.. got mi sharon and weixin.. haha so fun.. staying together is realli fun till we slept srd 2 pls.. summhow jus too excited to fall asleepy.. aniway.. ya we actualli called up the guys to check if they slp le ma.. and crap wif them in the middle of the night.. haha check wat they doing bla bla.. it is jus so fun.. den in the mroning woke up at 5.. it is realli sumthing i have nv tried before.. waking up that super early.. haha den did our morning gongyo den moves on to bedok to meet the guys to buy "pao" for our grp B.. haha so sweet hor.. and.. mok pay wor.. *surprised*..so sweet.. aniway.. den we hurry move on to station to take train over to expo.. cos we suggested to meet at 7 and we are like.. 6 50 still at bedok.. haha.. yep.. so ya lo.. when reach ctrl lots of item ic, trainers mebers were there.. but haha we still carried out our eating bao session.. took lots of pic on our makaning session. drinking.. sincerity warm tea prepared by lee huiling..my trainer , my nrpsd comrades, a gr8 sister in faith..she is so sweet wor.. esp perpared liang cha for us.. *touched touched*.. hmm den we made our way to expo after sum self satisfying pics which we took.. haha den guess wat we are supposed to wear our costume and go in.. so haha all of us.. wore and changed jus outside expo.. imagine imagine under the bright lights.. opps.. haha actuali is onli wear over.. haha yep.. so and we took sum great real pic there too.. hmm then the whole preparation for ycf kick off le lo.. first is deposit bag, gathered in our grp, took our clogs.. den preceed to make up and hair stlying.. haha bothe session was cool.. makeup was by the make up unit and my hair style was style by wen qing wor.. nice nice.. hmm.. den after that was lunch, foolowed by a runthrough den actualli performance at 3 pm.. hmm.. the show at 3 pm.. was kinda nt a 300 percent de.. dunno noe y.. cai fong and mi felt that there is no ycf mood.. perhaps it is justoo early.. most of us still in sleepy mood ba..aniway.. ya i truly agreed with her at that pt of time.. but guess our perception changed.. cos i keep telling myself.. "no i must enjoy myself to the fullest.. others dun tok, i shall tok, others dun smile i shall smile.. other feel down i should make them feel high:.. yep that was sumthing i tell myslf.. guess it do works.. haha thought the 3pm show was met by lots of sansho shima.. we overcomed it yea!! SD rulex!! yep.. aniway back to the after 3pm show.. was about to cry le.. cos the formation at the back was wrong sia.. we were nt inline.. and i almost broke in despair.. till.. i keep telling myself i shall be strong .. tis is all sanshoshima.. luckily after dinner.. meiqi called for a dry rehearsal with our grp.. and thanks to choerographer idea and meiqi grp co-operations.. we run thru, realised our mistake and make compromised for onw another.. in the ends it was realli a 300 percent successful.. even sum of the audience were touched as feedback by them and caifong friend actualli mention that she regretted nt joing our item.. hmm was realli happi to hear tis remark frm audiend esp non ssa member..aniway.. dinner was good.. got drumstick.. haha dunno is i hungry or wat guess wat,, i ate the fasterst in my grp when i was like 1/4 my way, my other member still have 3/4 of their rice.. opps.. am i too hungry or jus being to anxious abt the 9pm show.. aniway haha.. dun care.. jus enjoy to the best i could and help ard lo.. yep.. after dinner.. tot.. nothing big is gonna happen.. end up u guess wat, trainer realli give mi and others big surprise nie.. my gosh.. they composed their own trainer song from the song "peng you".. i was like.. my gosh, tears immediately welled up in my eyes..cos it is at this momment whereby parting may seem inevitable yet they still sang such a sad song convey ing the msg of their xin sheng.. my heart was touched at the same time.. touched by the lyrics.. it is jus so tru and real if u ever get to hear it again.. den while they sing i was like.. look at the other side trying to hide my tears.. but guess i din do a good job in hiding, my tears jus rolled down... and my make up smuged a lil.. end up. i pulled caifong to go do lil more make up.. and get away frm the scene.. is jus too much for mi to bear,, thinking of all the memories we had past for mths and now.. after tis show.. we might nt get to meet up wif all of them so easily.. my heart jus sank.. yep.. den.. think the trainer were shock by our response.. cos realli.. esp my grp i guessed, mi cried, cai cried, weixi cried too.. yea.. we r jus so vulnerable and easily moved.. perhaps nrpsd is jus too eaisly moved le ba.. i guess.. haiz.. den the show was abt to being soon after.. alot of annoucement encoruagement was given .. but sumhow i am still a lil worried.. cos the afternoon show was not that great whoch we all had expected.. sumhow buterfiles in my stomach.. so we quietly sat down and chant in our hears using our mind and sould to pray for that success.. yeah!!! den it was our turn.. we r damn ultra high after the junior choir item.. yea we were dancing while waiting.. but after the youth itewm.. immediately my mind slow down.. i turn back and saw gym core chanting.. argh.. i jus feel so bad if i dun chant for them.. sice they are still chanting yet we down here dancing like no body bussineess while waiting.. so end upp, cai, mi and yiheng start chanting with them to pray for the success of theri later man tower show.. den yea.. is finally our turn.. haha it was reali.. great, all bend rather low.. there was unity in shouting, tapping, everyone dancing with their might.. this are all wat i seen and feel while dancing.. and all of us flashes our bight smile which i guess we have seldom do during training.. yep.. and there.. i saw "chuan yi fong.. the chn U artist , also a ssa member with her husbang hong rong and her daughter.. both husband and wife are mediacorp artisit.. haha so touched nie.. yea.. the whole dance was full of dynamics.. ready to pull down expo anitime.. haha opps.. yea.. den came the huam tower by gym core.. deep in our heart though we r excited after the performance but we earnestly chant ing deep in opur hearts for the succesful human tower.. cos is relali nt easi.. everyone need to be alert, focused, concentrate and united for eveything to go well.. a slow in movement for the beat is sumting to avoid.. realli salute to ssa gym core!!! haha.. yea.. u guys did us proud.. admirable spirit.. having to perform 8 time.. in ycf.. nt including rehearsal..!! oh my... hmm.. yea..it was a ultimate success, cheers were thunderous.. even the minister was happy and pleased.. yea.. 300 percent.. success!! so proud to annouce it.. haha.. HQ1.. we did it!!. after the show.. pei xinyi with her grpE go tamp the grasssland near chllenger there to sit and tok.. haha was realli a romantic place commented by GK..played sum realli irrating but fun game.. cos i manged to catch it.. yea!! 3 cheers for mi.. haha den took a cab hm with cat, xinyi and mi.. haha wah cost to nearly 40 busk.. imagine from tamp, go jurong den bt.panjang.. wah... haha.. aniway it was still wrth ot la.. i mean haha..then the next dae.. guess siew hoon too tired to go watch hq 2 rehearsal haha so i got the fortune.. took the ticket from her went with xinyi and her mum to watch HQ2 at toa payoh.. stadium.. yea theirs was realli diff.. was a four season theme.. but i like theri dnace esp.. youth and the ballet and choir de.. so cute and the kids too frm yuhua.. haha such a cute moves,.. yea.. but there is still rm for improvement.. of cos nt forgtting the sambal dance by SD,, haha it was great too.. but mabbi a lil more open might helps in the moves.. shale and twist all u can.. yea!! haha.. yeps.. was a nice afternoon after all.. was sitting with big huiling, mi, xinyi, and meiqi.. sae jicong and huizi, benny, melvin there.. and guess wat the wei nan, our sd youth mention abt our HQ1 item ..and he commented that it as a great success.. thus encoraging the HQ2 to haven even stronger and do a better job then us.. which i believed yeah they can.. though i realli feel proud abt HQ1.. oppss.. but still i belive they will creat 400 percent success!! haha.. yep.. den after the show.. met up wif alan and sharon.. for the .....com discussion.. haha it was realli fun luffing and brainstorming.. enjoyed the wholes session together.. doing sumthing in common and i jus can't wait for the time when the...... is lauched.. oh my.. i be damn freaking proud of all of us.. working hard despite each have our own diff commitment... yea.. den hmm tis few dae been busy wif project and part-time work at venezia ice-cream.. cos this week got the stupid taka fair.. den they shortage of ppl.. haha so nedd to work more dae.. yep.. eeryone was like asking m.. u nt tired meh y ssi bubbly for work esp after sch.. haha well.. i always believ using a positive attitdue in doing things so yea.. gues sif i pay attention in class and lect.. with more revision next week my CT wun have a prob.. and abundant of daimoku.. haha.. yea.. okok.. gtg le.. is getting late i still haven bath.. opps.. haha nites all folks..!!

3 more daes to ycf..Big Big day!

hey.. if everybody is wondering wat my title is about.. is actually a youth cultural festival orgainsed by Singapore soka association.. it is held every five years.. and this time round our theme was rainbow of peace which happen to be inline with racial harmony dae thus it was supported by north west cdc.. thus we have the luxury of using EXPO.. Hall 5.. whaha so xing fen.. hmm.. must realli put up a good show.. 350 percent success.. and we definietly will !! haha yesterdae training was realli a good.. one.. we reach tsc ard 7.30 and toto that they are coming down frm chanting den we went immediately to the training ground onli to find that only sum trainer and new friends were there.. haha.. so in excitment and anticipation,, we ewent to on the music for ourselves to dance.. haha.. so paiseh so mani ppl looking wonder if i realli dance correctly ma.. ee.. yeah.. aniway..we were really high.. super ultura high.. haha.. is like it seems we can reallii stay there and sing song for eternity.. and my grp was ultra high.. we sang.. cheerful hearts in unity.. den guess wat i was suppossed to be the lead singer... sum how sum part i no voicee so weixin take over haha.. we sang, cheers.. wah.. watch our last sun video.. hmm.. cannot commit the same mistake.. and yesterdasae training was perferct every one was realli united.. den we all arranged to meet at expo mrt at 7 on sat.. den we can have happy meal prepared by ppl leaing in the east.. whah shiok to move ard in a group men.. and todae simokukai was great too... managed to watch video clip of the preparation for the ycf training at tsc.. 4 mths of traing.. in just a split sec.. soon we be on stage dancing to the beat of japanese tap dance.. and we will create 350 percent victory!!!

For The Past Few Daes.. Cum my Birthdae eve!!

haha.. yo.. hows everybody?? for the past few dae.. schedule had been rather hectic den usual.. cos.. we had three consecutive trainings for ycf.. can u imagine? tue wed, thurs all at tsc.. whaha..though i kinda far but is like.. i enjoy the ride to there after my work if nt on wed is after my sakae sushi wif my bro .. was sharing with him more abt Nichren Daishoin busshism.. trying to encourage him to come for more activities.. if nt he not bored with his llife.. i find it ultra boring.. haha.. it seem like there is no value in his life.. hmm aniway.. it will be included in my prayer.. haha oh ya... sakae sushi was gd.. but we din ate as much as the previous time... tis time.. cos i guess morning i had bean curd mabbi lo.. that y end up onli eat 50 plus dollars worth of sushi.. but paid stdent price instead.. haha.. yeap.. aniway.. training was cool.. manage to clear my doubts le.. now.. is soooo much more familiar with the step.. whaha.. shiok... aniway.. todae jus met up with sisi and huiping.. whaha.. to go shopp shop.. find out there is alot of thing we wann get.. oh my.. when are the three of us ever step into PA(police Academy).. i m waiting for that dae.. whaha.. yep.. aniway.. it was realli nice of sisi.. to buy mi a nike white cap as my birthdae present.. nah.. MMmmmmuaCCCK.. ! haha.. den after buying initally wanted to go hair cut.. but the aunti mistaken our appointment.. she told we book her tml.. arggg... end up she got wedding dinner tonight.. so.. boom.. our drem of cutting hair vanished.. ahha den we went back cause way shop again.. whaha.. this time roud.. we saw a display of digital cam.. wah.. goreous is the onli word that could describe.. whaha..soon.. 5,30 om le.. den gotta rucsh down to Ps too meet my long.. pri sch friend.. haha amanda.. yep.. we had dinner at pasta mania.. den guess wat she brought mi a top, a sapgatti top for my ycf. cos we need to wear somthing inside our kimono ma.. haha den since i dunno wat she can get for mi so.. watever i wann pay.. she pay lo.. whaha/.. birthdae is so shiok.. shop ard for free.. ahah.. aniway.. she also broungt another top the baleno top for mi.. whaha nice nice.. and it cheap and nice.. value for money.. whaha.. den went to hangten was attracted by the banner.. 29bucks minumim two pieaces.. wah that cheap for a jeans.. haha.. i somba i buy buy it when i received my pay.. haha.. and the skit too.. minimum 2 pcs.. 19 dollars each.. cheap sia.. for a bottom.. whaha.. yeaps..aniway todae had been rather happening ba.. a dae which i enjoyed till now.. guess wat now is 4.25 le.. oh my.. a few more hrs will be camppus connection.. haha.. excited.... wa=onder wat program they have for us.. haha.. aniway.. for mi to noe for u to find out.. oppz.. haha

TOUCHED.............

As i was typing this entry.. i cried.. tears jus automatically shed down.. is nt because of failing of test.. bad things happen to mi.. is beacuse.. i guess ycf is soon coming to an end which i realli can't bear.. the bond we creted among our own instiution, the bonds we created as an item the bonds as an HQ1.. todae.. was definitly one dae i will nv forget... the moment, after the morning spirit booster..i could see growth in our grp B.. i could see mani familar faces.. everyone is so serious in each and evey dance step.. everyone is beri eager to master their dance step in order to protray the true spirit of our item as an SD member.. u may call mi too emotional.. bla.. but todae is realli different.. evryone is cheering one another on.. u could hear thunderous clap.. from each of the corner from other item.. i believe there is still rm for improvement.. but i was realli touched by their gesture.. i mean.. is like u feel.. everyone is with u.. u are nt alone..jus by an item by as a whole HQ1.. and todae.. perhaps i was touched and lil excited, high.. by everything.. unluckily my clogs the stem came off.. but to mi.. i was nt sad.. but i am realli touched that.. my grp member was wif mi even till the extent i finished wearing back my own shoe.. till i kepp asking them to go learn their steps cos sum still nt familar..ma.. though i was one of them sum time.. haha.. i m jus touched that when even i go.. i knew there be ppl for mi.. support for us to lean on.. the first combined rehearsal.. was a real good one.. but compared to the second one.. the second rehearsal.. if nt that we are supposed to stand by i guess my tears would jus flow..cos is like.. after the youth item.. everyone was giving support to one another by giving the high five thingy.. it jus so family to mi.. though we may be starger but our goals is the same.. one of the incident that realli make my eye wet.. was actualli when FD were getting ready for finale lying up behind my grp.. den the fd ic was like.. let give support to our "gor gor jie jie" den they clap clap.. to mi that was enough to make my eyes wet le..i mean they address us as gor gor jie jie.. is like so qing qie to mi lo..so glad with their thunderous clap though they are jus sec 1-4.. but.. for a stranger to encourgae and clap for us.. is umthing only SSA have.. we are jus like a big family.. giving support to everyone though we dun even noe the person well.oh ya.. the my eyes was rather wet.. dunno whu sia suddenly tot of xiao huiling.. den immediately da huiling.. try to search of mi.. actualli i was jus near her.. den he sawmy eye wet.. ask mi.."huiling, u ok u cried" oh no so malu.. i was like arh no la .. nothing.. then luckily sharon sae huh should be yesterdae lack of sleep.. den caifong think she dunno y i tear too also sae.. haha must be u yawn rite den tears cum out i also have this experience.. haha.. actualli the real reason was i was touched.. realli touched.. touched by the spirit.. touched by the fd support.. touched by.. i have came so far.. touch that i made the right decidion to join ycf tis yr under SD.. if nt i guess the experience might be diff cos as an sd.. we are also a campus ic.. got to orgainse activity beside ycf training.. and.. was touched that finally i overcome so mani stones in my path.. but i guess.. more stones might be coming my way... but i am going to based on my payers.. to really chant for.. highlife condition of all members in each and every training and all the actual dae.. nt only that.. i realised tru ycf i really get to bond more wif the ymds at least..we can tok till the extend on msn.. is so de fun.. i mean .. i i believe.. as the dates drew closer san sho shima will be on their way.. lets win overthem.. lets chant more and based all in the power of daimoku... den.. jus now.. a few min ago.. had a very encouraging cic wif mi.. online.. i was telling him.. regarding a members sanshoshima.. den though he was not in ycf as he is busi as a trainer in gym ore for ndp.. he immediately help mi to analyse.. find out the gens or the prob , give mi suitable ancouragement to encourgae him the next time he is online. though i think i hardly noe this cic cos we were so busy in either ycf and he in ndp.. but.. i am touched when i told him.. hey is getting late dun stay up late due to the problem... i will feel guilty de. he was like nothing beats then helping my cic.. orh.... so sweet... beri touched.. his encouragement was great.. and he is so cute.. dae his happiness lies in my hand.. of cos i wann him happy.. provided he must accept.. if nt i will jus be the wind blowing past him.. haiz.. summore still dae is my mission.. haha.. funni boi.. glad to have know ya.. john they all din select the wrong person for cic role.. u definitely got wat it takes... we jia you together and chant hard against all sanshoshima attcking all our members ok?? is a critical momment.. lets realli chant with determined faith...thank buds.. luckly u are ard at this time.. cos all the rest would have fall asleep..by now.. 1.59am..