-speechless-

speechless is the only word to describe.. i knew ur dun want it to happen this way. neither do i..
have i not put in enough effort?

Anyway.. i turned back to my favourite NHR.. ans this is wat touches mi by the words of sensei...


1) Challenge yourself to do Kosen Rufu is the same to challenge your life's
obstables.You must be dead sure why you want to do Kosen Rufu! So at times
when you think that things are going against you, doubts will bound to arise to
challenge you,that is the real challenge and real benefits!~Ikeda Sensei

2) Happiness does not exist somewhere outside us. It resides within our hearts. All of us possess a brillant diamond of happiness, a palace of fortune, in the depth of our lives.-sensei

Next weeK gonna be realli packed up agaIn.. mon and tue got prep for bintan trip exchange for sounveeir making and discussion on NHR vol sunrise chap.. haha..is rather fun lo.. noeing more of other ywds in sd.. going for this trip together..

Last thurs, susan joined us for the prep mtg for bintan.. she share alot abt the members over there.. bintan was actualli taken care of by singapore soka.. yupz.. from little member to now wif increasing membership.. wah to think back GD ong and sum other youth leader realli put their hearts and soul in building up bintan.. also get to noe that members over at bin tan is really pure-hearted... they are simple.not bearing doubts in gohonzon as lives there is more simple compared to spore.. also.. they have lil knowledge abt ssa and sensei.. thus we are going over to share more with them abt wat we know abt sensei and the whole sgi.. i kinda looking forward to this event..and i definitely gonna bring some of my books over to share wif them as over there they onli got one vol of nhr being translated... realli wish to forge a lasting friendship with members over dere.. haha yep so next mon and tue will be mtg the rest of ywd for prep at syc...

wed, will have a dialogue session with grace one for the potential members under weixia.. hmm.. guess it be a fruitful one.. haha

thurs got gosho study as well as my usual tution.. haiz.. lost which should i go... haiz.. there is simply no other daes to slot my tution as i be leaving on sun.. after GD ong gongyo.. let's see..

fri is rendevous.. hmm.. wanna bring my friend down.. hope she can make it.. must chant alot liao..

sst two tution at one go...

sun.. wooh... the dae has arrive... off to bintan..

oppz today out of a sudden.. on the bus realise alan knows sharmain.. ahaha.. the world is so small.. sharmain u heard tat...?? alan knows u from jurongville...hahah..

Company plant shut down!!!!!

hey surprised.. is nt yet sat and i am blogging haha... well , cos tmr is company plant shut down.. cool yeah.. got off.. but no salary.. haiz.. sob.. wanna go back work also can cos mi in office de ma dun realli affect.. but will be paid as normal.. summore the enviroment is len len qing qing.. lots of hunks and ppl nt there.. haha... tis few dae has been seeing him as i passed by his department while on my way to toilet.. oppx.. din mean to peep but.. looking also nt committing crime ma.. haha jus kidding la.. no la .. jus kinda admire the way he brought himself.. whus the person, for mi to know for ya to find out.. haha.. tis week work is kinda saddening and funny in a way.. dunno wanna cry of smile.. haha.. mondae helps to cross reference all the drawing our department has with the system.. types alot on excel.. like BB and GG to indicate it's presence.. and also.. help to arrange the cell as soon i be going up to R and D section to manually find the drawings.. no joke lo.. 300 plus drawing.. sooner or later my eyes gonna give way.. whaha.. but fun in the sense.. yesterdae tue and today been slacking from 8am till after lunch.. go to my friends department see if there's anithing for mi to help her.. as my shi fu is on course.. hai.. wat a timing.. so luckily need nt do OT.. yep.. den todae the most irrating thing was goota squeezed all the 300 plus drawings no into one A4 portrait paper.. my gosh... how can it be done.. i got rejected by my manager a few time before knowing that he loves to reject ppl works as it had become part of jhis habit.. even my shifu been rejected 8 times.. oh my god.. a test of my patience.. haha so actaully one colleague of mine taught mi not to do neat and nice for first piece as he cfm will reject de.. ahah.. wat a theory.. funny la.. haix

went to give lil sharon tution.. haha.. beri funny in a sense.. she is jus so adorable.. hardworking.. but like to day dream.. haha.. nice ger... reward her which choc stick after she finished her class work.. her smile brings a joy in my heart too.. one part i love abt her.. she loves to do homework.. haha.. so tat gives mi more job yeah.. and she alwyas asking for my next visit.. yeah.. next lesson guess will be on tis sat before cic training.. haha

oh ya toking abt cic training.. todae in the midest of working hrs , received a msg from xy.. to gather ppl to chant in senja for the success of the coming sat.. wonderful.. gald to see an initative act taken by ywd again.. oppx.. i mean yeah.. yep.. we must always take the first step only den there be change... right.. do not fear to initate daimoku, stuff etc.. for it will helps to bring us closeer.. actualli i also feel that if initative is instill in an institution onli den things could starts moving.. imagine when cic is waiting for the iic to spponfeed or rather waiting for that one person to make a move? how terrible would it be..?? haha..

Anyway to end off... LOOKING FORWARD TO TMR CIC REHEARSAL AND MY REST DAE!!!

3 weeks have passed...

Oopx.. guess it been three weeks i have started my full time job.. haha as usual gotta wake up ealy.. even before the sun rises.. haha but kinda used to it le.. this week is super interestig in the sense tat i have do things differently form the past 1 week again.. was brought to various department and get a feel of the whole company operation.. and also gotta send stuff up and down.. haha.. enjoying more of my work.. moreover collegues was cool.. made some of my age de collegues.. sum even younger den mi.. haha.. de planning next wed.. making us of company hoildae as it was plant shutdown to go for sum movies and KTV sessionn.. ooo.. miss tat.. relisie have been torturing ppl ard mi wif my voice.. whaha.. yep.. hopefully send my labby to repair.. yep.. this week finally able to touch my job scope le.. so happi.. was asked to serach sum compatitble dawing in the janpanese system.. thru guidenece of my supervisor.. interesting.. haha actualli have gottan my desk yet.. so in the mean time mi using manager desk.. cool.. seat super comfortable.. tats the diff btw a manger post and staff.. ha.. oppx... had overtime todae too.. tot can go tution and collect my pay.. end up ask to do overtime.. and also on sat till 12.. cos i got sd dae at 3 ma.. haha.. cool..

Suddenly lots of flash back , words said from my ywd district leader flashed thru my mind in the company.. i rmb she ever said tat.. as ywd it is important for us to accumulate good fortune as we nv know when we need it aswe have long time towards the rest of our life and our good fortuen can actualli transform to benefit for us in future.. whether is it geting a good man to marry, a stable job, a satisfying life.. everything u wan depends on how u wanna accumulate them now.yesh NOW!! right at this momment.. at that time i could nt realli understand but now i could feel it.. ever since becoming active and giving my best in every thing i could feel the protection and the smooth arrangement.. whether is is impposible or sumthing i had nv expect.. jus like my africa trip, my bursary, my police letter.. though nt yet to enrol, my result which i am rather satisfied with this sem, the ablilty to tranform my lazy bro to sum one whu attends mtg now.. i believe all this.. is realli sumthing i nv tot i would achieve.. to think back.. her words is right and straight to the point.. sum ppl tot that as long as they got the right mindset of gohozon they will not slack back w/o making the effort to go for mtg... all i could say is tat attending mtgs, going all out for campaign can really forge a stronger self, though mabbi is stressful, feel disapointed at time.. but it also helps to cultivate a more determined self.. i believe sumtime, believing is nt enough as attending mtg, grasping as much as we can from seniors is jus like a platform for us not to fall back any further, it acts as a support..yeah...

haha alot of da dao li tonight oppx.. cos sumtime whn ever i heard or ppl nt able to attend mtg.. i can't help but feel sad for them cos they misses a chance to grow in wisdom again.. i admit sumtime money is important.. but there are also things money can't buy.. even if the work is realli so urgent one should alwasy try to balance and weigh the important.. utlimatly if still feel tat work is important den i hope ya enjoyed ya work too.. i mean mtg only held at tat time and the dae wun repeat again.. can't arrange be made so tat it fits nicely? hmm.. haha cos a lot of my friends or ppl i heard becos of work and realli lost touch with ssa.. realli dun wish tata to happen to anione ard mi yeah.. must all really brim with happiness and wisdom.. yeah.. haha

ok got to end here... tmr two tution assignment followed by one prep mtg at syc for our sd dae.. haha.. excited to see hows their preparation so far.. oppz.. your can de jia you!!! nrpsd will "ding " ni all the way.. oppx.. haha

fulfilling saTurdae...

Yeah.. i m finally back on this blog again seem like my entry has been on a weekly basis eversince i started work heh.. haha.. no choice dun relali have the mood to blog wat ever happens in the dae.. cos too mani things to be said.. haha.. yep.. todae was realli a fun fillied dae at least for mi.. haha.. din have such a schedule soooo packed.. yep..

woke up at 9.30 to prepare to go plaza to collect my venezia pay.. hmm.. is alradey the 8th yet i haven receive mine.. so gotta hurry the boss.. yep.. den go for my p2 tution at 11,30.. had sum light luch by having pearly soyamilk.. haha.. yep den all the way tution till 11-1.30.. supposed to end by 1 but haven finished teaching her for sch work so extra time for her lo.. den made my way to gini hs, my p6 ger.. whu supposed to give mi tution pay todae.. but her mum forget.. hur hur.. okok.. la.. next lesson den.. hmm.. den teach form 2-3.. by right is 3.30 but mi gotta reach soo shan hs at 3.30.. so gotta rush after tution..

went son shan has for daimokukai for his father speedy recovery,.. glad to hear form her tat her dad is recovering slowly.. how relieved.. yep.its been a long time since i chanted 1 and half hr at one shot.. haha.. den took bus at 5.. to rush over town to meet my dear charlene.. to buy serene pressie.. haha wat we bought for serene? sumthing personal.. for mi to noe, u to find out.. haha.. yep.. spend a lil.. den met sum good bargains on jewerly.. cool... me and char each bought sum.. den proceed to meeting nelly after char left for her church service.. gotta carry the stuff while shopping realli look like an aunti men.. omg.. hilarious.. haha.. den we had ajisen ramen for dinner..

wif my dear nelly.. order one side dish.. and we each has a set.. cool.. was rather cheap though.. haha.. den shop ard.. guess wat mi saw my meng mei yi qiu de hip hop pants from S and K.. haiz.. but nelly dun let mi buy.. kepp reminding mi tat i am supposed to help her look for serene bdae pressie.. haiz.. end up din buy.. hope to get it tmr.. haha... hopefully before going senja for the prep... yeah.. den jus reach hm nt long.. tired... but fully enjoyed my dae... yeah.. looking forward to a more happening dae tmr... is serene 21 celebration at chervon's....

!!!! happI 21st Bdae ger!!!!

1st week of my work....

hey.. got miss mi? haha yeah here i am to update my blog it has been a week since i started working at panasonic at tuas after the release of results.. working in society is realli not easi, lots of date lines to be met.. stress level is definiitely high.. cos orders can realli comes last minutes den lots of admin stuff to do. hai.. but nonetheless.. we are still young so perhaps it realli time for mi to challenge amidst my tight schedule.. ever since i started this job.. my whole week has been rather packed.. 2 tution on weekdae night, 4 div planning and youth mtg on sum dae.. sum dae also have sd , nrp mtg, lotsa mtg and homevist to realli forge for.. hmm.. but no matter wat i will treat it as part of my life, my mission.

Yeah.. the whole week at work was like doing different thing each dae.. monday do sum filling, stamping, and also typing the time record sheet for our production worker. tuesdae was fully working on the timesheet as there is like 55 of them to be key in for the whole month.. sat in front of com the whole dae realli a test for my butt.. haha btw the first dae at work was a pleasant experience for mi as when i was at the lobby waiting for the HR to bring us and brief us more abt the work, i met a ger ,jolene whu happens to be in np too and she is the same batch as mi and commiting for nine months too.. haha so blessed of mi to have met her during the course of my work. summore to my surprise we were allocate the same bus back hm.. as she lives in woodland so will definitely passed by my hs first before reaching hers.. had her company during lunchas we were posted to different department doing admin work..and had different lunch break timing. so she will wait for mi till my bell rang and we go to canteen for lunch together lo

However, for the past 1 week i had nt done anithing related to my scope yet all i been doing is assits the admin ger whu is two yrs younger den mi going into uni soon in august so she will leave in may.. sadz.. den perhap a new ger will come again.. haha.. cos the oracle system has nt been implemented yet till late april.. so guess meanwhile gotta help out others.. thus doing different thing each dae.. which is also sumthing i m looking forward too each dae.. met alot of friends there.. quite enjoy my stay there so far.. wonder if it is too early to sae tat..haha..

time realliy passed very fast at work cos got small mini break in btw.. and the canteen food is damn cheap and nice.. super worth it.. haha. quite ok with the pay system and transport is all the way to my doorstep.. and also sum other buses to sum other area.. which means if i were to go for mtg.. i could take other bus which pass by there.. isn't it good? save alot of my transport fee nia.. haha..

yeps tat all for my past 1 week at work.. todae went to home visit weixia.. together with rowem and layleng though rowe lost her voice but her presence and spirit is realli admirable lo.. haha.. dear ger demand more honey drink from him yea.. oppz.. u noe wat i mean.. haha.. yep.. den also went to hm visit samantha after that. told her abt the sd mtg tat she and xueyun is in charge of. hmm.. she seems happi and kinda welcome the idea.. yep.. tat kinda end my dae.. den went to buy dinner with layleng at bpp den she left for the memorial gongyo at jurong kaikan.. haha.. ger xing ku ni le.. as for mi gotta prepared to tune in early too tmr going for kot training.. yeah.. gotta see the new gers.. as well as my memorial mtg at senja.. from 3-5..

think gotta end here.. looking forward to the 2nd week of work... haha