PosT YCF syndrome..

hey.. guess it been ong time since i last blog.. got so mad wif tis blogspot technical thingy... i lost the entry.. which i meant to post it before ycf.. now guessed i can onli post it on after ycf ba.. hmm.. sad sad... aniway.. yeah!! we finally made it.. so glad so happi.. yet kinda sad too.. cos guess now.. weekdae esp tue and thur is jus so lost.. not knowing wat to do cos during ycf at least we will either meet up on tue or thurs or fri.. now suddenly so mani empty slot.. haix,, kinda realli lost.. but like wat william sae life has to move on.. perhasp is another new chapter of our life.. aniway.. to realli share with u tjis ycf is realli nt one entry is enough there is jus too mani to sae.. hmm.. lets see.. shall start on the eve of ycf ba.. haha guess it was the best and my most intimate dae with my grp B gers and guys.. haha opps.. did i jus mentioned intimate? yea.. haha cos we went down to tsc to chant for the success for sat show while the trainers and backstage, commppl are busy at expo.. .. xin ku ni men le.. aniway.. yea.. i was a lil late for diamokukai.. haha.. aniway we complted the whole daimokukai.. den mok was actualli running thru the steps wif our guys.. haha si hardworking nie.. hehe yep.. den we met outside MTA after the daimokukai.. to finalidse tml mtging time while i and sharon seardch for weixin and other ycf member.. ha the feeling of meeting up again before the real dae was shiok.. summoehwo the man zhui gan is there.. yep.. den opps the guys, noel,mok,yiheng stay over at noel hs.. as fro us.. got mi sharon and weixin.. haha so fun.. staying together is realli fun till we slept srd 2 pls.. summhow jus too excited to fall asleepy.. aniway.. ya we actualli called up the guys to check if they slp le ma.. and crap wif them in the middle of the night.. haha check wat they doing bla bla.. it is jus so fun.. den in the mroning woke up at 5.. it is realli sumthing i have nv tried before.. waking up that super early.. haha den did our morning gongyo den moves on to bedok to meet the guys to buy "pao" for our grp B.. haha so sweet hor.. and.. mok pay wor.. *surprised*..so sweet.. aniway.. den we hurry move on to station to take train over to expo.. cos we suggested to meet at 7 and we are like.. 6 50 still at bedok.. haha.. yep.. so ya lo.. when reach ctrl lots of item ic, trainers mebers were there.. but haha we still carried out our eating bao session.. took lots of pic on our makaning session. drinking.. sincerity warm tea prepared by lee huiling..my trainer , my nrpsd comrades, a gr8 sister in faith..she is so sweet wor.. esp perpared liang cha for us.. *touched touched*.. hmm den we made our way to expo after sum self satisfying pics which we took.. haha den guess wat we are supposed to wear our costume and go in.. so haha all of us.. wore and changed jus outside expo.. imagine imagine under the bright lights.. opps.. haha actuali is onli wear over.. haha yep.. so and we took sum great real pic there too.. hmm then the whole preparation for ycf kick off le lo.. first is deposit bag, gathered in our grp, took our clogs.. den preceed to make up and hair stlying.. haha bothe session was cool.. makeup was by the make up unit and my hair style was style by wen qing wor.. nice nice.. hmm.. den after that was lunch, foolowed by a runthrough den actualli performance at 3 pm.. hmm.. the show at 3 pm.. was kinda nt a 300 percent de.. dunno noe y.. cai fong and mi felt that there is no ycf mood.. perhaps it is justoo early.. most of us still in sleepy mood ba..aniway.. ya i truly agreed with her at that pt of time.. but guess our perception changed.. cos i keep telling myself.. "no i must enjoy myself to the fullest.. others dun tok, i shall tok, others dun smile i shall smile.. other feel down i should make them feel high:.. yep that was sumthing i tell myslf.. guess it do works.. haha thought the 3pm show was met by lots of sansho shima.. we overcomed it yea!! SD rulex!! yep.. aniway back to the after 3pm show.. was about to cry le.. cos the formation at the back was wrong sia.. we were nt inline.. and i almost broke in despair.. till.. i keep telling myself i shall be strong .. tis is all sanshoshima.. luckily after dinner.. meiqi called for a dry rehearsal with our grp.. and thanks to choerographer idea and meiqi grp co-operations.. we run thru, realised our mistake and make compromised for onw another.. in the ends it was realli a 300 percent successful.. even sum of the audience were touched as feedback by them and caifong friend actualli mention that she regretted nt joing our item.. hmm was realli happi to hear tis remark frm audiend esp non ssa member..aniway.. dinner was good.. got drumstick.. haha dunno is i hungry or wat guess wat,, i ate the fasterst in my grp when i was like 1/4 my way, my other member still have 3/4 of their rice.. opps.. am i too hungry or jus being to anxious abt the 9pm show.. aniway haha.. dun care.. jus enjoy to the best i could and help ard lo.. yep.. after dinner.. tot.. nothing big is gonna happen.. end up u guess wat, trainer realli give mi and others big surprise nie.. my gosh.. they composed their own trainer song from the song "peng you".. i was like.. my gosh, tears immediately welled up in my eyes..cos it is at this momment whereby parting may seem inevitable yet they still sang such a sad song convey ing the msg of their xin sheng.. my heart was touched at the same time.. touched by the lyrics.. it is jus so tru and real if u ever get to hear it again.. den while they sing i was like.. look at the other side trying to hide my tears.. but guess i din do a good job in hiding, my tears jus rolled down... and my make up smuged a lil.. end up. i pulled caifong to go do lil more make up.. and get away frm the scene.. is jus too much for mi to bear,, thinking of all the memories we had past for mths and now.. after tis show.. we might nt get to meet up wif all of them so easily.. my heart jus sank.. yep.. den.. think the trainer were shock by our response.. cos realli.. esp my grp i guessed, mi cried, cai cried, weixi cried too.. yea.. we r jus so vulnerable and easily moved.. perhaps nrpsd is jus too eaisly moved le ba.. i guess.. haiz.. den the show was abt to being soon after.. alot of annoucement encoruagement was given .. but sumhow i am still a lil worried.. cos the afternoon show was not that great whoch we all had expected.. sumhow buterfiles in my stomach.. so we quietly sat down and chant in our hears using our mind and sould to pray for that success.. yeah!!! den it was our turn.. we r damn ultra high after the junior choir item.. yea we were dancing while waiting.. but after the youth itewm.. immediately my mind slow down.. i turn back and saw gym core chanting.. argh.. i jus feel so bad if i dun chant for them.. sice they are still chanting yet we down here dancing like no body bussineess while waiting.. so end upp, cai, mi and yiheng start chanting with them to pray for the success of theri later man tower show.. den yea.. is finally our turn.. haha it was reali.. great, all bend rather low.. there was unity in shouting, tapping, everyone dancing with their might.. this are all wat i seen and feel while dancing.. and all of us flashes our bight smile which i guess we have seldom do during training.. yep.. and there.. i saw "chuan yi fong.. the chn U artist , also a ssa member with her husbang hong rong and her daughter.. both husband and wife are mediacorp artisit.. haha so touched nie.. yea.. the whole dance was full of dynamics.. ready to pull down expo anitime.. haha opps.. yea.. den came the huam tower by gym core.. deep in our heart though we r excited after the performance but we earnestly chant ing deep in opur hearts for the succesful human tower.. cos is relali nt easi.. everyone need to be alert, focused, concentrate and united for eveything to go well.. a slow in movement for the beat is sumting to avoid.. realli salute to ssa gym core!!! haha.. yea.. u guys did us proud.. admirable spirit.. having to perform 8 time.. in ycf.. nt including rehearsal..!! oh my... hmm.. yea..it was a ultimate success, cheers were thunderous.. even the minister was happy and pleased.. yea.. 300 percent.. success!! so proud to annouce it.. haha.. HQ1.. we did it!!. after the show.. pei xinyi with her grpE go tamp the grasssland near chllenger there to sit and tok.. haha was realli a romantic place commented by GK..played sum realli irrating but fun game.. cos i manged to catch it.. yea!! 3 cheers for mi.. haha den took a cab hm with cat, xinyi and mi.. haha wah cost to nearly 40 busk.. imagine from tamp, go jurong den bt.panjang.. wah... haha.. aniway it was still wrth ot la.. i mean haha..then the next dae.. guess siew hoon too tired to go watch hq 2 rehearsal haha so i got the fortune.. took the ticket from her went with xinyi and her mum to watch HQ2 at toa payoh.. stadium.. yea theirs was realli diff.. was a four season theme.. but i like theri dnace esp.. youth and the ballet and choir de.. so cute and the kids too frm yuhua.. haha such a cute moves,.. yea.. but there is still rm for improvement.. of cos nt forgtting the sambal dance by SD,, haha it was great too.. but mabbi a lil more open might helps in the moves.. shale and twist all u can.. yea!! haha.. yeps.. was a nice afternoon after all.. was sitting with big huiling, mi, xinyi, and meiqi.. sae jicong and huizi, benny, melvin there.. and guess wat the wei nan, our sd youth mention abt our HQ1 item ..and he commented that it as a great success.. thus encoraging the HQ2 to haven even stronger and do a better job then us.. which i believed yeah they can.. though i realli feel proud abt HQ1.. oppss.. but still i belive they will creat 400 percent success!! haha.. yep.. den after the show.. met up wif alan and sharon.. for the .....com discussion.. haha it was realli fun luffing and brainstorming.. enjoyed the wholes session together.. doing sumthing in common and i jus can't wait for the time when the...... is lauched.. oh my.. i be damn freaking proud of all of us.. working hard despite each have our own diff commitment... yea.. den hmm tis few dae been busy wif project and part-time work at venezia ice-cream.. cos this week got the stupid taka fair.. den they shortage of ppl.. haha so nedd to work more dae.. yep.. eeryone was like asking m.. u nt tired meh y ssi bubbly for work esp after sch.. haha well.. i always believ using a positive attitdue in doing things so yea.. gues sif i pay attention in class and lect.. with more revision next week my CT wun have a prob.. and abundant of daimoku.. haha.. yea.. okok.. gtg le.. is getting late i still haven bath.. opps.. haha nites all folks..!!