TOUCHED.............

As i was typing this entry.. i cried.. tears jus automatically shed down.. is nt because of failing of test.. bad things happen to mi.. is beacuse.. i guess ycf is soon coming to an end which i realli can't bear.. the bond we creted among our own instiution, the bonds we created as an item the bonds as an HQ1.. todae.. was definitly one dae i will nv forget... the moment, after the morning spirit booster..i could see growth in our grp B.. i could see mani familar faces.. everyone is so serious in each and evey dance step.. everyone is beri eager to master their dance step in order to protray the true spirit of our item as an SD member.. u may call mi too emotional.. bla.. but todae is realli different.. evryone is cheering one another on.. u could hear thunderous clap.. from each of the corner from other item.. i believe there is still rm for improvement.. but i was realli touched by their gesture.. i mean.. is like u feel.. everyone is with u.. u are nt alone..jus by an item by as a whole HQ1.. and todae.. perhaps i was touched and lil excited, high.. by everything.. unluckily my clogs the stem came off.. but to mi.. i was nt sad.. but i am realli touched that.. my grp member was wif mi even till the extent i finished wearing back my own shoe.. till i kepp asking them to go learn their steps cos sum still nt familar..ma.. though i was one of them sum time.. haha.. i m jus touched that when even i go.. i knew there be ppl for mi.. support for us to lean on.. the first combined rehearsal.. was a real good one.. but compared to the second one.. the second rehearsal.. if nt that we are supposed to stand by i guess my tears would jus flow..cos is like.. after the youth item.. everyone was giving support to one another by giving the high five thingy.. it jus so family to mi.. though we may be starger but our goals is the same.. one of the incident that realli make my eye wet.. was actualli when FD were getting ready for finale lying up behind my grp.. den the fd ic was like.. let give support to our "gor gor jie jie" den they clap clap.. to mi that was enough to make my eyes wet le..i mean they address us as gor gor jie jie.. is like so qing qie to mi lo..so glad with their thunderous clap though they are jus sec 1-4.. but.. for a stranger to encourgae and clap for us.. is umthing only SSA have.. we are jus like a big family.. giving support to everyone though we dun even noe the person well.oh ya.. the my eyes was rather wet.. dunno whu sia suddenly tot of xiao huiling.. den immediately da huiling.. try to search of mi.. actualli i was jus near her.. den he sawmy eye wet.. ask mi.."huiling, u ok u cried" oh no so malu.. i was like arh no la .. nothing.. then luckily sharon sae huh should be yesterdae lack of sleep.. den caifong think she dunno y i tear too also sae.. haha must be u yawn rite den tears cum out i also have this experience.. haha.. actualli the real reason was i was touched.. realli touched.. touched by the spirit.. touched by the fd support.. touched by.. i have came so far.. touch that i made the right decidion to join ycf tis yr under SD.. if nt i guess the experience might be diff cos as an sd.. we are also a campus ic.. got to orgainse activity beside ycf training.. and.. was touched that finally i overcome so mani stones in my path.. but i guess.. more stones might be coming my way... but i am going to based on my payers.. to really chant for.. highlife condition of all members in each and every training and all the actual dae.. nt only that.. i realised tru ycf i really get to bond more wif the ymds at least..we can tok till the extend on msn.. is so de fun.. i mean .. i i believe.. as the dates drew closer san sho shima will be on their way.. lets win overthem.. lets chant more and based all in the power of daimoku... den.. jus now.. a few min ago.. had a very encouraging cic wif mi.. online.. i was telling him.. regarding a members sanshoshima.. den though he was not in ycf as he is busi as a trainer in gym ore for ndp.. he immediately help mi to analyse.. find out the gens or the prob , give mi suitable ancouragement to encourgae him the next time he is online. though i think i hardly noe this cic cos we were so busy in either ycf and he in ndp.. but.. i am touched when i told him.. hey is getting late dun stay up late due to the problem... i will feel guilty de. he was like nothing beats then helping my cic.. orh.... so sweet... beri touched.. his encouragement was great.. and he is so cute.. dae his happiness lies in my hand.. of cos i wann him happy.. provided he must accept.. if nt i will jus be the wind blowing past him.. haiz.. summore still dae is my mission.. haha.. funni boi.. glad to have know ya.. john they all din select the wrong person for cic role.. u definitely got wat it takes... we jia you together and chant hard against all sanshoshima attcking all our members ok?? is a critical momment.. lets realli chant with determined faith...thank buds.. luckly u are ard at this time.. cos all the rest would have fall asleep..by now.. 1.59am..