Tuesday, March 22, 2005

miXed feeLing...

hmm.. by the time ur see this entry , it be 2 week after junges survival camp.. cos din update immediately that time was due too too mani emotions and thoughts, victory. etc.. Victory is whereby i managaed to pass all the knowldege to my juniors hoping they realli grasped it and it was indeed the most memorable camp in my life.. y? cos is like everyone is so independent and we are so serious in our planning always making sure nothiings goes wrong on the actual dae. every one seem so prepared which is realli rare in my councilship life.. hmm.. realli thanks all the ppl whu have encouraged mi and gave mi advise when i am lost, luff at my cold jokes, allow mi to voice my opinion freely. life would have be diff w/o u guys, All the sweat we went thru, hardship, a common goal,but sad is that though we all succeded and enjoy in this camp, i will forget the times we work hard for this result, Times flies, soon it be time for CSM which i realli dunno to look forward or dread it to come.. y? cos i realli hate to leave my title as a 29th council, council life is realli wonderful..... it jus diff from ani club u ever find, for the bonds is stronger till we can even discuss abt our private life with one another. I realli hate to leave u all. but i noe this dae will come.. only we left could den the new ones com e and bring tas to a greater ht. Your can do it.. jus bear in mind TAS motto kay.. Things will nt be the same.. after csm.. all will be leading their own life.. suddenly i feel lost and lonely.. though i nooe i have my gakkai comrades wif mi.. butthe feeling of going to trip nt as a council is realli hard for mi to accept... hmm.. i do agree.. there are times we fight.. i mean whu dun fight? even couples do.. let alone the 29 councill.. but still.. the bond is forever there after a hug or maybe as time passed.. cos each of us are unique and we all bear diff view hence i always stood in a neutral view looking at things.. y? cos.. support him oso unfair to the other.. support the other, is unfair to him.. both are my dearest.. both i went thru so much with them.. is realli hard to hate one another like wat sharon sae lo wwhen u look at their good pt. hmm.. realli sad.. i afraid i will breakdown durig csm.. hmm so guys if ever caught mi sheding dun be shocked ya.. esp with the accompaniment of "tong Hua".. my gosh realli made mi shed when llistening and thinking back.. all the good things we did together... hiaz... "suay yue bu liU rEN".. guess now is my time to contribut to SokA Gakkai and i relaised my mission that is to be a capable leader of tml..no matter wat.. all i can sae is.. TAS.. U RoX.. ThanKS 29th council.. ur create rainbows in my life!!!!!!!!!!!

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