sPeEcHlEsS..

Looking back of all my post , most of it are happy ones.. but guess this entry gonna be a breakthru.. i feel real shitty now.. after reading thing that i should not have read.. have i not done enough? have we committed and thing wrong to face such strong persection and obligation to u? i jus could not understand when someone is trying hard to transform another one's life yet the person is not giving herself chance.. times and time nice words have been said.. perhaps u may say i have changed but.. dun human grow.. perhaps i have grown to be firmer but looking at the stat right now do i have a choice.. ? i am utterly sad.. lost speechless..hai.. wat must i do to make ya awaken to ya mission in life.. escaping from prob isn't the only sloution .. u may find it tough now but.. when u get older, step in to societ.. the harshness u faced outside is even much worse then this.. hai.. believe it or not.. it relly depens on ya.. shit.. why am i saying all this.. well i m lost sum how.. jus wanna cry..and let all my tears flow.. times and time ppl lie.. giving u empty promises.. trying to be strong is sumthing we ought to do.. but is really not easy when tones and tons u been receiving rejections..i need a break.. to breathe as much ..

guess my time in troubling all this issue will nt be long.. once medical check up is done.. off i going for basic trainer course off will only be out on sat and sun..well well.. think gotten end here.. have sob enough le..

tmr going back nP to meet sum members and cic.. the world will continues to rotate.. watever.. yesh.. i must get up on the 8th.. huiling jiayou!!