sunny sunny night....

heyhey i am back after spending all my fruitful time in sharon house yesterdae.. haha was realli glad with the outcome though like she mention there is sanshoshima along the way like the printer, touchpad milo.. but w'o it it wun be that fun rite? haha yea.. so happi finally we made at least 70 le rite? hehe jia you!! like wat sharon sae yeah i agreed doing sounveir is realli nt easi.. further more is doing for ypur own member each and everypiece is jus so precious that we emphasise on giving the best to them.. haha sumhow can see light le.. that success is coming their way for this coming campus connection.. hee.. yeah.. no worries.. we will help ur till the end.. for we r sisters.... haha yeah.. aniway realli hope there be more weekend.. weekend is nv dull if u spend it wif.. NRPSD comrades.. yeah... oh ya... btw.. the following poem is composed by gk.. haha to acknowledge his effort.. yeah it was realli a nice pieace seem like a conclusion and summary of mi.. thanks dude.. yep but am i realli that good as u write meh.. haha think.. perhaps.. there still stuff i need to improve on ba.. haha.. okok nice poem.. love it lots.. hehe.. thanks.. is the effort that counts.. hehe...

Created by GK
Hui Ling, a emotional being,
She packs herself with lots of feeling,
To her friends, she’s always caring,
To me, she is my friend,
Whose friendship, is never fading,
As problems showers on her like its raining,
Problems like love, Problems like friends,
She remains courageous, and always daring,
And towards the problems, she’s always solving,
Life is tough, working while studying,
Further more Saturday have gym trainings,
She’s so tired; 3am is when she’s bathing,
And when in school, she feels like sleeping,
Sweet thoughts is what she’s dreaming,
And as poems are limited,
This poem about hui ling is never ending…

hey... finally back....

hoho.. haha guess it been rather long since i updated .. haha aniway.. not much stuff happen.. but like sharon.. mi is also packed with meetimg, and more meeting with all my comrades in faith regardless of nrpsd shirt com, or my ywd haha.. past one week have been rather enriching to mi.. last sun , went back for kot training.. feeling kinnda shiok though i guess it has been two yrs since i was back.. mani juniors have grown.. haha den after that went for ycf hq1 post celebration.. watched the video abt our we performed on 2 july.. it was realli great i was so touched.. there is vibrance, vitality that i have nv felt before.. is jus seems tat every one is realli putting all their might in all the step.. such a wonderful show cum memories.. hmmm den after that was supposed to go for the bursting of balloon thingy but cos it started at 4.15 den kinda stuffy so we gave up we went to tm.. to shop a while den have our dinner cum short shirt com mtg.. to touch up.. haha after that mok and francis joined us.. had a good lufff over everything hehe... they are jus so funni... i will nv forget " this is nice, but i dun like it" .. this sentence is powerful neh.. haha.. aniway..i also ccancel my tution and pei them till night den we went hm lo.. haha we discuss abt our chalet too which is on the 21 aug to 23 aug.. haha grp B de and in conjuction with sharon and mok bdae.. haha yep.. turns out realli well.. den on mon.. met up with shirt com to decide and discuss stuff.. haha.. den tue.. was back to venezia at take.. din realise i have nt work for 6 dae.. till i punch card.. haha den hmm.. wed had our ywd cic mtg... hmm the mtg was rather a light one.. but kinda heavy at the end.. cos we realised time is run each moment.. soon all of my iic, cic whu have brougt mi into this big family graduating soon.. i hate to leave them but i know is time for them to advance and spread the wonders of the mystic law... i will nv forget.. the happi momment we have.. thanks to ur.. for wat i m not.. i will definitely nt let ur down but strive to be a good cic, a good daughter, a good friend, a good student.. haiz... sui yue bu rao ren.. as wenqing was saeing his leaving gan yen, tears welled up in my eyes.. is jus so hard to imagaine she is leaving us for good.. and i guess cai fong cried.. could see her tears following while i tried to cover with my jacket... hais.. i will miss ur lots... yep..all the best in all ya endeavours ba.. hmmm sob sob... den on thurs as usual went to work... den ya lo.. todae fri le.. haha jus reach hm nt long after mtg xinyi, shaon and gk in town to shop for sumthing.. opps it must be a bit weird for gk.. aniway hope it turns out great chilling out wif us.. haha yep aniway.. after geeting our stuff had dinner at hans.. had a good luff too.. hehe den went to marina to collect my key for tmr venexia opening haha.. guess it be another busy dae for mi tmr.. after work.. mtging cai.. they all to discuss sounveir.. hehe.. yeap.. stay tuned.. will update more... hehe

a dae Of EmotIonal struggle..wat's real love?

hmm.. actualli todae.. was supposed to wake up ealy to go for the gym.. all due to this cold weather i oversleptt.. and it was rining haeavily den din meet up wif sharon lo.. but guess wat i returned to my sleep...and i slept all the way till 2pm.. my gosh think i will be still sleeping if dear din call mi tis afternoon.. cos we supposed to meet up.. haha.. den jump off frm my bed, bath and a slight breakfast.. broom... off to meet him le.. on my way to the mtging i was beaming with hope.. cos long time din see him le ma.. i mean for a cule.. 1 mth 3 week din see.. is realli unusual.. ha.. aniway.. he was late.. cos he was caught in a jam in PIE.. so i waited lo.. wait wait.. den he appear le.. parked his car in my sch den we made our way to borders cos he wanna get a book called battle tech.. haha.. so ya lo... followed him there.. den he get his stuff.. we sat at coffee bean after that.. den xinyi called.. ask mi if wanna go watch ycf.. actualli i was nt in the mood la.. dunno y.. jus feel that sumthing nt right wif mi todae.. summore mon got paper.. haiz.. so ya lo.. end up pass the ticket to alvin and his friend to watch..den on the way back.. dear was actualli trying to played wif mi.. but i was jus nt in the mood.. cos u see.. he was like trying to played with my arm in the public lo.. and it realli hurts.. i was like so de mad.. all the while on bus din tok to him.. i noe he knew it too.. but sumtime his behaviour jus turn mi off.. nt doing the right thing at the right time.. haiz.. den on the bus alot of though went passed mi i was like thinking.. this relationship seems to be going worst and worst.. the feeling for him seeems to have faded.. wonders if that was becos we benn seeing one another less often.. deep inside mi i dun feel like a gf to him.. i m jus like a friend a pilliar he counts on.. i do need security i do need ppl to pamber mi sumtime.. i hate to be a guy to u.. u agree with mi that perhaps we dun realli undertsnad one another.. u find mi weird in thinking.. u dun seem to noe what am i thinking.. but have u ever tried.. i noe sumtime i did nt explain clear to u wat am thinking.. cos u noe i am jus not realli good in expressing my idea.. sumtime.. i jus feel like breaking down.. y things turns out liddat?? i can realli miss ya at sum time.. and totally hack care of u at times.. y? i nt sure too dun ask mi.. haiz.. sumtime i feel that perhaps a separation for a while might do us both good.. i noe u hate to leave mi.. but sumhow.. i jus feel painful and upset when times after times i got to bear wif my packed schedule and disappointment that i can't meet up wif u.. times after time i got to put up a happy, brave front in front of my friend ensuring that our relationship is still surviving well.. i am tired.. though i still love u.. hope that u do consider.. perhaps.. at least salavage sumthing in the end.. sumthing i am even wondering.. if u have mi in ya heart.. friend or mi cum first.. i do admit u need freedom but.. when even i am free to meet up wif u.. it will nt be a committed full dae.. is either u rushing here and there.. after all my daes of waiting all i get is spending max of 2 hrs or 3 hr wif u..? yes u may sae is my fault for waking up late todae.. i admit.. cos i am realli tired.. i m sorry.. but how abt other times.. hmm.. i am jus lost.. jus feel that i m standing at the edge of a cliff.. not noeing where to turn.. hopefully u understand y am i saeing all this.. is nt becos i dun love ya.. but hoping tat sumthing can be done.. if not.. we shall let fate decide.. i am realli tired..

comMoN TesT Week...

hmm this week is realli kinda mentally hectic for mi.. all becos i have four paper to go.. oh my.. luckily gpt break in btw.. aniway.. the study break week was spend studying wif lyn and gk.. haha so funni was rather a weird combi.. cos we came frm diff course.. yet stil can study till so happily.. haha aniway studing woth both of them was beri beri de fun neh.. haha.. though gk.. will be rather lame sumtime but he definitely makes our dae.. haha cos we get to suan him.. bla bla.. anwiway for the past few.. dae.. realli busy mugging with all my modules.. sian.. can;'t wait for ct to be over.. haiz and this week is the last ycf week.. which means ycf is gonna over soon.. hmm times flies.. all the way frm recruitment till now.. performance is gonna over.. hmm lets hope everyone have achieved sumthing out of it.. yep.. gotta.. statr my revison again.. byee folks.. dun miss mi wor.. haha.. first time ever.. such a short entry.. opps

nice song....

他還是不懂作詞：徐世珍　作曲：王治平　編曲：王治平
要說什麼 杯子都已經空了閉上眼睛心裡下起大雪　天寒又地凍是不是到了　
愛情結帳的時候　只剩下各自買單的寂寞為什麼當我推開門 他沒有來拉住我

＊他還不懂　還是不懂　離開是想要被挽留　如果開口那只是　我要來的溫柔　
他還不懂　永遠不懂　一個擁抱能代替所有　愛絕對能夠動搖我

要用什麼　融化這一片沉默在四周的冷空氣裏歎息　化成煙飄走過去的種種　在
心裏滾成雪球　怕還沒說話淚就會先流愛不是他給得不多　是不知道我要什麼Repeat ＊都是背了太多的心願　流星才會跌的那麼重愛太多　心也有　墜毀的時候

Repeat ＊

在第一時間拯救我

WeNt to WatcH Pre_RecOrdED suPerStAR..

yiyo.. yeah.. todae.. after my work ends ta 5, met up wif GK and lyn .. to watch superstar at media corp.. haha all thanks to doreen whu provide us the chance to watch.. opps.. hah.. so time files reali fast during work.. soon tehy cum find mi.. haha ended up we all wearing whte.. machiam PAPs.. haha.. aniway.. make our way t the taxi stand in a hurry and also to the main road,.. hoping to get sum cab.. but i guess all cab driver dun dare t picks us up.. cos is sumhow illegal to pick passsenger when the taxu stand is nearby.. as commented by GK=grass king.. jin jie? haha watever.. aniway he become our jiemei le.. opps.. hope he dun see tis.. haha.. hmm the show was great except ofr sumthing..the organixer of the show yesterdae sucks.. they issued more then the seat for the tickets.. end up sum ppl whu din manage to egt the seat gotta dsit on the floor.. sian.. luckily for the three of us.. we are at the top.. so.. still ok.. though gotta sit on the floor.. but the view was great we could move freely.. stand up when we wan to and sit when we feel like.. haha aniway... all i could sae is the contestand are realli beri pia in this competition.. they took teh judges comment quiet seriously..haha guessed wat the result teht we predicited are more or less the same standar as the judges.. exp... gk de.. he guess sebestian 28.. he realli 26 sia.. hmm.. power... haha den after the whole show.. we walk out wanting to hail for cab to bring us to jackson place for supper but no cab.. so forget it lo... we took bus after walking and waiting for so long.. hmm.. den on the bus we were sininging..humming.. den i ask lyn to go for the soka audition on aug.. den it spices mi interest too.. shall sign up.. haha.. opps.. yeah.. den we reach toa payoh.. gk saw his friends.. or should i sae his friend spotted him.. haha yep.. went kfc to havethe banito pocket.. nice nice... tok, crap alot.. haha and there was tis time.. Gk face got so red.. oh my.. so funni.. haha.. den hmm.. guess it late le.. so we made our way back.. haha den they sned mi to take train though there is a bustop jus outside kfc for them to take hm.. haha.. guess gk made teh wrong decision in sending mi to train station there... cos after we left.. he immedisaley got.. suan.. haha we suaning him to be our jie mei soon... den he was lik.. i am going to get angry le.. haha den we theased him.. bla bla.. oh poor boy.. but nonethelss.. haha.. a lamer..,cute, funni boi i would sae.. opps. but i am still cuter den u. .haha ... yep..

My analysis.. on Job preParation ..interesting!!!

July 08, 2005 ... haha.. a survey we are supposed to do for job preparation one part of my IS -efficient people management module.. opps.. yea.. here is a better accruate analysis of mi.. haha wat do u think... accruate?? hmm seems kinda to mi..

I am an idealist.. haha
Free report for: Tay Hui lang

Idealists, as a temperament, are passionately concerned with personal growth and development. Idealists strive to discover who they are and how they can become their best possible self -- always this quest for self-knowledge and self-improvement drives their imagination. And they want to help others make the journey. Idealists are naturally drawn to working with people, and whether in education or counseling, in social services or personnel work, in journalism or the ministry, they are gifted at helping others find their way in life, often inspiring them to grow as individuals and to fulfill their potentials.
Idealists are sure that friendly cooperation is the best way for people to achieve their goals. Conflict and confrontation upset them because they seem to put up angry barriers between people. Idealists dream of creating harmonious, even caring personal relations, and they have a unique talent for helping people get along with each other and work together for the good of all. Such interpersonal harmony might be a romantic ideal, but then Idealists are incurable romantics who prefer to focus on what might be, rather than what is. The real, practical world is only a starting place for Idealists; they believe that life is filled with possibilities waiting to be realized, rich with meanings calling out to be understood. This idea of a mystical or spiritual dimension to life, the "not visible" or the "not yet" that can only be known through intuition or by a leap of faith, is far more important to Idealists than the world of material things.
Highly ethical in their actions, Idealists hold themselves to a strict standard of personal integrity. They must be true to themselves and to others, and they can be quite hard on themselves when they are dishonest, or when they are false or insincere. More often, however, Idealists are the very soul of kindness. Particularly in their personal relationships, Idealists are without question filled with love and good will. They believe in giving of themselves to help others; they cherish a few warm, sensitive friendships; they strive for a special rapport with their children; and in marriage they wish to find a "soulmate," someone with whom they can bond emotionally and spiritually, sharing their deepest feelings and their complex inner worlds.
Idealists are rare, making up between 20 and 25 percent of the population. But their ability to inspire people with their enthusiasm and their idealism has given them influence far beyond their numbers.

The Four types of Idealists are:
Healers (INFP) Counselors (INFJ) Champions (ENFP) Teachers (ENFJ)

PosT YCF syndrome..

hey.. guess it been ong time since i last blog.. got so mad wif tis blogspot technical thingy... i lost the entry.. which i meant to post it before ycf.. now guessed i can onli post it on after ycf ba.. hmm.. sad sad... aniway.. yeah!! we finally made it.. so glad so happi.. yet kinda sad too.. cos guess now.. weekdae esp tue and thur is jus so lost.. not knowing wat to do cos during ycf at least we will either meet up on tue or thurs or fri.. now suddenly so mani empty slot.. haix,, kinda realli lost.. but like wat william sae life has to move on.. perhasp is another new chapter of our life.. aniway.. to realli share with u tjis ycf is realli nt one entry is enough there is jus too mani to sae.. hmm.. lets see.. shall start on the eve of ycf ba.. haha guess it was the best and my most intimate dae with my grp B gers and guys.. haha opps.. did i jus mentioned intimate? yea.. haha cos we went down to tsc to chant for the success for sat show while the trainers and backstage, commppl are busy at expo.. .. xin ku ni men le.. aniway.. yea.. i was a lil late for diamokukai.. haha.. aniway we complted the whole daimokukai.. den mok was actualli running thru the steps wif our guys.. haha si hardworking nie.. hehe yep.. den we met outside MTA after the daimokukai.. to finalidse tml mtging time while i and sharon seardch for weixin and other ycf member.. ha the feeling of meeting up again before the real dae was shiok.. summoehwo the man zhui gan is there.. yep.. den opps the guys, noel,mok,yiheng stay over at noel hs.. as fro us.. got mi sharon and weixin.. haha so fun.. staying together is realli fun till we slept srd 2 pls.. summhow jus too excited to fall asleepy.. aniway.. ya we actualli called up the guys to check if they slp le ma.. and crap wif them in the middle of the night.. haha check wat they doing bla bla.. it is jus so fun.. den in the mroning woke up at 5.. it is realli sumthing i have nv tried before.. waking up that super early.. haha den did our morning gongyo den moves on to bedok to meet the guys to buy "pao" for our grp B.. haha so sweet hor.. and.. mok pay wor.. *surprised*..so sweet.. aniway.. den we hurry move on to station to take train over to expo.. cos we suggested to meet at 7 and we are like.. 6 50 still at bedok.. haha.. yep.. so ya lo.. when reach ctrl lots of item ic, trainers mebers were there.. but haha we still carried out our eating bao session.. took lots of pic on our makaning session. drinking.. sincerity warm tea prepared by lee huiling..my trainer , my nrpsd comrades, a gr8 sister in faith..she is so sweet wor.. esp perpared liang cha for us.. *touched touched*.. hmm den we made our way to expo after sum self satisfying pics which we took.. haha den guess wat we are supposed to wear our costume and go in.. so haha all of us.. wore and changed jus outside expo.. imagine imagine under the bright lights.. opps.. haha actuali is onli wear over.. haha yep.. so and we took sum great real pic there too.. hmm then the whole preparation for ycf kick off le lo.. first is deposit bag, gathered in our grp, took our clogs.. den preceed to make up and hair stlying.. haha bothe session was cool.. makeup was by the make up unit and my hair style was style by wen qing wor.. nice nice.. hmm.. den after that was lunch, foolowed by a runthrough den actualli performance at 3 pm.. hmm.. the show at 3 pm.. was kinda nt a 300 percent de.. dunno noe y.. cai fong and mi felt that there is no ycf mood.. perhaps it is justoo early.. most of us still in sleepy mood ba..aniway.. ya i truly agreed with her at that pt of time.. but guess our perception changed.. cos i keep telling myself.. "no i must enjoy myself to the fullest.. others dun tok, i shall tok, others dun smile i shall smile.. other feel down i should make them feel high:.. yep that was sumthing i tell myslf.. guess it do works.. haha thought the 3pm show was met by lots of sansho shima.. we overcomed it yea!! SD rulex!! yep.. aniway back to the after 3pm show.. was about to cry le.. cos the formation at the back was wrong sia.. we were nt inline.. and i almost broke in despair.. till.. i keep telling myself i shall be strong .. tis is all sanshoshima.. luckily after dinner.. meiqi called for a dry rehearsal with our grp.. and thanks to choerographer idea and meiqi grp co-operations.. we run thru, realised our mistake and make compromised for onw another.. in the ends it was realli a 300 percent successful.. even sum of the audience were touched as feedback by them and caifong friend actualli mention that she regretted nt joing our item.. hmm was realli happi to hear tis remark frm audiend esp non ssa member..aniway.. dinner was good.. got drumstick.. haha dunno is i hungry or wat guess wat,, i ate the fasterst in my grp when i was like 1/4 my way, my other member still have 3/4 of their rice.. opps.. am i too hungry or jus being to anxious abt the 9pm show.. aniway haha.. dun care.. jus enjoy to the best i could and help ard lo.. yep.. after dinner.. tot.. nothing big is gonna happen.. end up u guess wat, trainer realli give mi and others big surprise nie.. my gosh.. they composed their own trainer song from the song "peng you".. i was like.. my gosh, tears immediately welled up in my eyes..cos it is at this momment whereby parting may seem inevitable yet they still sang such a sad song convey ing the msg of their xin sheng.. my heart was touched at the same time.. touched by the lyrics.. it is jus so tru and real if u ever get to hear it again.. den while they sing i was like.. look at the other side trying to hide my tears.. but guess i din do a good job in hiding, my tears jus rolled down... and my make up smuged a lil.. end up. i pulled caifong to go do lil more make up.. and get away frm the scene.. is jus too much for mi to bear,, thinking of all the memories we had past for mths and now.. after tis show.. we might nt get to meet up wif all of them so easily.. my heart jus sank.. yep.. den.. think the trainer were shock by our response.. cos realli.. esp my grp i guessed, mi cried, cai cried, weixi cried too.. yea.. we r jus so vulnerable and easily moved.. perhaps nrpsd is jus too eaisly moved le ba.. i guess.. haiz.. den the show was abt to being soon after.. alot of annoucement encoruagement was given .. but sumhow i am still a lil worried.. cos the afternoon show was not that great whoch we all had expected.. sumhow buterfiles in my stomach.. so we quietly sat down and chant in our hears using our mind and sould to pray for that success.. yeah!!! den it was our turn.. we r damn ultra high after the junior choir item.. yea we were dancing while waiting.. but after the youth itewm.. immediately my mind slow down.. i turn back and saw gym core chanting.. argh.. i jus feel so bad if i dun chant for them.. sice they are still chanting yet we down here dancing like no body bussineess while waiting.. so end upp, cai, mi and yiheng start chanting with them to pray for the success of theri later man tower show.. den yea.. is finally our turn.. haha it was reali.. great, all bend rather low.. there was unity in shouting, tapping, everyone dancing with their might.. this are all wat i seen and feel while dancing.. and all of us flashes our bight smile which i guess we have seldom do during training.. yep.. and there.. i saw "chuan yi fong.. the chn U artist , also a ssa member with her husbang hong rong and her daughter.. both husband and wife are mediacorp artisit.. haha so touched nie.. yea.. the whole dance was full of dynamics.. ready to pull down expo anitime.. haha opps.. yea.. den came the huam tower by gym core.. deep in our heart though we r excited after the performance but we earnestly chant ing deep in opur hearts for the succesful human tower.. cos is relali nt easi.. everyone need to be alert, focused, concentrate and united for eveything to go well.. a slow in movement for the beat is sumting to avoid.. realli salute to ssa gym core!!! haha.. yea.. u guys did us proud.. admirable spirit.. having to perform 8 time.. in ycf.. nt including rehearsal..!! oh my... hmm.. yea..it was a ultimate success, cheers were thunderous.. even the minister was happy and pleased.. yea.. 300 percent.. success!! so proud to annouce it.. haha.. HQ1.. we did it!!. after the show.. pei xinyi with her grpE go tamp the grasssland near chllenger there to sit and tok.. haha was realli a romantic place commented by GK..played sum realli irrating but fun game.. cos i manged to catch it.. yea!! 3 cheers for mi.. haha den took a cab hm with cat, xinyi and mi.. haha wah cost to nearly 40 busk.. imagine from tamp, go jurong den bt.panjang.. wah... haha.. aniway it was still wrth ot la.. i mean haha..then the next dae.. guess siew hoon too tired to go watch hq 2 rehearsal haha so i got the fortune.. took the ticket from her went with xinyi and her mum to watch HQ2 at toa payoh.. stadium.. yea theirs was realli diff.. was a four season theme.. but i like theri dnace esp.. youth and the ballet and choir de.. so cute and the kids too frm yuhua.. haha such a cute moves,.. yea.. but there is still rm for improvement.. of cos nt forgtting the sambal dance by SD,, haha it was great too.. but mabbi a lil more open might helps in the moves.. shale and twist all u can.. yea!! haha.. yeps.. was a nice afternoon after all.. was sitting with big huiling, mi, xinyi, and meiqi.. sae jicong and huizi, benny, melvin there.. and guess wat the wei nan, our sd youth mention abt our HQ1 item ..and he commented that it as a great success.. thus encoraging the HQ2 to haven even stronger and do a better job then us.. which i believed yeah they can.. though i realli feel proud abt HQ1.. oppss.. but still i belive they will creat 400 percent success!! haha.. yep.. den after the show.. met up wif alan and sharon.. for the .....com discussion.. haha it was realli fun luffing and brainstorming.. enjoyed the wholes session together.. doing sumthing in common and i jus can't wait for the time when the...... is lauched.. oh my.. i be damn freaking proud of all of us.. working hard despite each have our own diff commitment... yea.. den hmm tis few dae been busy wif project and part-time work at venezia ice-cream.. cos this week got the stupid taka fair.. den they shortage of ppl.. haha so nedd to work more dae.. yep.. eeryone was like asking m.. u nt tired meh y ssi bubbly for work esp after sch.. haha well.. i always believ using a positive attitdue in doing things so yea.. gues sif i pay attention in class and lect.. with more revision next week my CT wun have a prob.. and abundant of daimoku.. haha.. yea.. okok.. gtg le.. is getting late i still haven bath.. opps.. haha nites all folks..!!

3 more daes to ycf..Big Big day!

hey.. if everybody is wondering wat my title is about.. is actually a youth cultural festival orgainsed by Singapore soka association.. it is held every five years.. and this time round our theme was rainbow of peace which happen to be inline with racial harmony dae thus it was supported by north west cdc.. thus we have the luxury of using EXPO.. Hall 5.. whaha so xing fen.. hmm.. must realli put up a good show.. 350 percent success.. and we definietly will !! haha yesterdae training was realli a good.. one.. we reach tsc ard 7.30 and toto that they are coming down frm chanting den we went immediately to the training ground onli to find that only sum trainer and new friends were there.. haha.. so in excitment and anticipation,, we ewent to on the music for ourselves to dance.. haha.. so paiseh so mani ppl looking wonder if i realli dance correctly ma.. ee.. yeah.. aniway..we were really high.. super ultura high.. haha.. is like it seems we can reallii stay there and sing song for eternity.. and my grp was ultra high.. we sang.. cheerful hearts in unity.. den guess wat i was suppossed to be the lead singer... sum how sum part i no voicee so weixin take over haha.. we sang, cheers.. wah.. watch our last sun video.. hmm.. cannot commit the same mistake.. and yesterdasae training was perferct every one was realli united.. den we all arranged to meet at expo mrt at 7 on sat.. den we can have happy meal prepared by ppl leaing in the east.. whah shiok to move ard in a group men.. and todae simokukai was great too... managed to watch video clip of the preparation for the ycf training at tsc.. 4 mths of traing.. in just a split sec.. soon we be on stage dancing to the beat of japanese tap dance.. and we will create 350 percent victory!!!

For The Past Few Daes.. Cum my Birthdae eve!!

haha.. yo.. hows everybody?? for the past few dae.. schedule had been rather hectic den usual.. cos.. we had three consecutive trainings for ycf.. can u imagine? tue wed, thurs all at tsc.. whaha..though i kinda far but is like.. i enjoy the ride to there after my work if nt on wed is after my sakae sushi wif my bro .. was sharing with him more abt Nichren Daishoin busshism.. trying to encourage him to come for more activities.. if nt he not bored with his llife.. i find it ultra boring.. haha.. it seem like there is no value in his life.. hmm aniway.. it will be included in my prayer.. haha oh ya... sakae sushi was gd.. but we din ate as much as the previous time... tis time.. cos i guess morning i had bean curd mabbi lo.. that y end up onli eat 50 plus dollars worth of sushi.. but paid stdent price instead.. haha.. yeap.. aniway.. training was cool.. manage to clear my doubts le.. now.. is soooo much more familiar with the step.. whaha.. shiok... aniway.. todae jus met up with sisi and huiping.. whaha.. to go shopp shop.. find out there is alot of thing we wann get.. oh my.. when are the three of us ever step into PA(police Academy).. i m waiting for that dae.. whaha.. yep.. aniway.. it was realli nice of sisi.. to buy mi a nike white cap as my birthdae present.. nah.. MMmmmmuaCCCK.. ! haha.. den after buying initally wanted to go hair cut.. but the aunti mistaken our appointment.. she told we book her tml.. arggg... end up she got wedding dinner tonight.. so.. boom.. our drem of cutting hair vanished.. ahha den we went back cause way shop again.. whaha.. this time roud.. we saw a display of digital cam.. wah.. goreous is the onli word that could describe.. whaha..soon.. 5,30 om le.. den gotta rucsh down to Ps too meet my long.. pri sch friend.. haha amanda.. yep.. we had dinner at pasta mania.. den guess wat she brought mi a top, a sapgatti top for my ycf. cos we need to wear somthing inside our kimono ma.. haha den since i dunno wat she can get for mi so.. watever i wann pay.. she pay lo.. whaha/.. birthdae is so shiok.. shop ard for free.. ahah.. aniway.. she also broungt another top the baleno top for mi.. whaha nice nice.. and it cheap and nice.. value for money.. whaha.. den went to hangten was attracted by the banner.. 29bucks minumim two pieaces.. wah that cheap for a jeans.. haha.. i somba i buy buy it when i received my pay.. haha.. and the skit too.. minimum 2 pcs.. 19 dollars each.. cheap sia.. for a bottom.. whaha.. yeaps..aniway todae had been rather happening ba.. a dae which i enjoyed till now.. guess wat now is 4.25 le.. oh my.. a few more hrs will be camppus connection.. haha.. excited.... wa=onder wat program they have for us.. haha.. aniway.. for mi to noe for u to find out.. oppz.. haha

TOUCHED.............

As i was typing this entry.. i cried.. tears jus automatically shed down.. is nt because of failing of test.. bad things happen to mi.. is beacuse.. i guess ycf is soon coming to an end which i realli can't bear.. the bond we creted among our own instiution, the bonds we created as an item the bonds as an HQ1.. todae.. was definitly one dae i will nv forget... the moment, after the morning spirit booster..i could see growth in our grp B.. i could see mani familar faces.. everyone is so serious in each and evey dance step.. everyone is beri eager to master their dance step in order to protray the true spirit of our item as an SD member.. u may call mi too emotional.. bla.. but todae is realli different.. evryone is cheering one another on.. u could hear thunderous clap.. from each of the corner from other item.. i believe there is still rm for improvement.. but i was realli touched by their gesture.. i mean.. is like u feel.. everyone is with u.. u are nt alone..jus by an item by as a whole HQ1.. and todae.. perhaps i was touched and lil excited, high.. by everything.. unluckily my clogs the stem came off.. but to mi.. i was nt sad.. but i am realli touched that.. my grp member was wif mi even till the extent i finished wearing back my own shoe.. till i kepp asking them to go learn their steps cos sum still nt familar..ma.. though i was one of them sum time.. haha.. i m jus touched that when even i go.. i knew there be ppl for mi.. support for us to lean on.. the first combined rehearsal.. was a real good one.. but compared to the second one.. the second rehearsal.. if nt that we are supposed to stand by i guess my tears would jus flow..cos is like.. after the youth item.. everyone was giving support to one another by giving the high five thingy.. it jus so family to mi.. though we may be starger but our goals is the same.. one of the incident that realli make my eye wet.. was actualli when FD were getting ready for finale lying up behind my grp.. den the fd ic was like.. let give support to our "gor gor jie jie" den they clap clap.. to mi that was enough to make my eyes wet le..i mean they address us as gor gor jie jie.. is like so qing qie to mi lo..so glad with their thunderous clap though they are jus sec 1-4.. but.. for a stranger to encourgae and clap for us.. is umthing only SSA have.. we are jus like a big family.. giving support to everyone though we dun even noe the person well.oh ya.. the my eyes was rather wet.. dunno whu sia suddenly tot of xiao huiling.. den immediately da huiling.. try to search of mi.. actualli i was jus near her.. den he sawmy eye wet.. ask mi.."huiling, u ok u cried" oh no so malu.. i was like arh no la .. nothing.. then luckily sharon sae huh should be yesterdae lack of sleep.. den caifong think she dunno y i tear too also sae.. haha must be u yawn rite den tears cum out i also have this experience.. haha.. actualli the real reason was i was touched.. realli touched.. touched by the spirit.. touched by the fd support.. touched by.. i have came so far.. touch that i made the right decidion to join ycf tis yr under SD.. if nt i guess the experience might be diff cos as an sd.. we are also a campus ic.. got to orgainse activity beside ycf training.. and.. was touched that finally i overcome so mani stones in my path.. but i guess.. more stones might be coming my way... but i am going to based on my payers.. to really chant for.. highlife condition of all members in each and every training and all the actual dae.. nt only that.. i realised tru ycf i really get to bond more wif the ymds at least..we can tok till the extend on msn.. is so de fun.. i mean .. i i believe.. as the dates drew closer san sho shima will be on their way.. lets win overthem.. lets chant more and based all in the power of daimoku... den.. jus now.. a few min ago.. had a very encouraging cic wif mi.. online.. i was telling him.. regarding a members sanshoshima.. den though he was not in ycf as he is busi as a trainer in gym ore for ndp.. he immediately help mi to analyse.. find out the gens or the prob , give mi suitable ancouragement to encourgae him the next time he is online. though i think i hardly noe this cic cos we were so busy in either ycf and he in ndp.. but.. i am touched when i told him.. hey is getting late dun stay up late due to the problem... i will feel guilty de. he was like nothing beats then helping my cic.. orh.... so sweet... beri touched.. his encouragement was great.. and he is so cute.. dae his happiness lies in my hand.. of cos i wann him happy.. provided he must accept.. if nt i will jus be the wind blowing past him.. haiz.. summore still dae is my mission.. haha.. funni boi.. glad to have know ya.. john they all din select the wrong person for cic role.. u definitely got wat it takes... we jia you together and chant hard against all sanshoshima attcking all our members ok?? is a critical momment.. lets realli chant with determined faith...thank buds.. luckly u are ard at this time.. cos all the rest would have fall asleep..by now.. 1.59am..

the MissIng 'Me'

todae was rather a stressful dae.. had a guest lecture from far east organixation toking about the 4 Ps for marketing followed by a hr break and my individua oral presentation.. my gosh.. the last class to present out of four classes was definitelt nt a good one as teacher will compare from what other class have and wat u dun have.. damn stresses la.. thru out the presentation though i see calm.. but i m nervous like hell worried that during the Q and A session.. weird qns will be pose.. if i unable to handle i be dead.. haha.. hmm.. but despite all my worries.. it goes rather smooth todae.. though a bit funni at the beginning cos i used a different approach.. cos got creativity points ma... haha.. hmm.. aniway.. presentation slides was obiendent... my class mates nt bad either.. din gave mi a headach... cos i think nacy yeao see i abit. toungu tied.. help mi alil lo.. luckily compared to her other class i covered all aspect of consumer credit burea only lacked of the credit report.. haiz.. sian.. but aniway.. was a good one at least that is wat i think ahah..guess mabbi still leaving in that stat of worried ness.. that y when reach tsc.. though we chtted lots of crap with caifong, derrick and yiheng... but reach tsc.. for my ycf training.. dunno i wat happen sia.. seem super blured todae.. as if my soul nv come back... i keep doing the wrong step.. den mt grp members whu always take mi as their guide.. followed my mistake too.. arghh shit.. haiz... den i feel damn paiseh la.. realli super paiseh.. even mok was shocked.. oh no.. must be the in ability to adapt to my new formation.. cos now no one beside mi i am on the extreme left row.. last time i was in centre.. haiz.. mabbi can't adapt lo.. thats y.. haiz.. HUiLING ar HUILING cannot liddat leh.. haha.. okok aniway beside loosing my spirit toade the dance was a great one in total cos we wore our clogs.. ahha.. was realli a challlenge in keeping balance.. now i do face challenge in ycf.. that is the balancey .. haha.. but aniway will try my best lo.. haha.. was realli a nice one.. tot i could nt dance properly in that clogs.. bust guess it goes rather well.. haha todae mok.. damn naughty sia.. keep luffing at mi.. haha mi oso luffing at myself lo.. whaha the whole incident is jus so funni.. imgaine ppl facing the front yet i did the turning step.. so damn obviious and paiseh la.. can't stop luffing sia.. oh my.. guess perhasp the post presentation dilema still in mi sia.. haiz.. haha.. oh ya did i mention.. i got the YCF tee le haha so happi den got the watch too so nice leh machiam swatch sia.. haha den the watch beacme the topic on the bus 65 haha.. cos eelynn, xinyi, vina all wanna the watch sia.. haha and the tee too.. hmmoh ya tml i be getting my digi cam as bdae present.. haha hopefully i got the model i wan.. cos that tim i went left a few only.. sob haha.. den can take down of those wonderful memories in ycf le.. haha..
happi happi happi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Prayer List...

1) World wide peace and prosperity

2) Mr and mrs Ikeda sensei good health and success in all konsen-rufu movement

3) 100 percent attandance rate for all sun training our item..

4) Success in this coming 2 july ycf performance

5) High spirit of all participant for each dance training

6) Able to cope with studies and work

7) Able to score A and Bs in thsi coming common test

8) Speedy recovery of my sis in law father ...

9) Good health of all my families and friends

10) Success in NDP 2005

11) Lyn and beeleng to stay in venezia

12) Wisdom to pass the ticket to sumone whom treasured it and value it..

An IncIdeNt....STrike my mInd..

"do Not run thru life so fast that you forget not only where u have beenbut also where u are going".. this sentence realli strike mi yesterdae.. while looking back at sim wonderful quote which i took them nice during my spare time.. hmm guess the past two mths, time is kinda running short.. every moment seems so precious for mi.. rushing for tutions, gakkai activity, training, work, bla.. hmm.. sumhow.. i been too busy that i seem to be a lil lost.. of whethe rhave i fullfil my ultimate best in each area i am workinh hard for.. hmm.. sumhow.. i guess my studies is a lil lagged,, but i will definitely bucked up.. i must.. i must show actuall proof this coming common test. haha..though i n=knew there is a lot of ????? now .. regarding..bonds,, warrant.. finacial instrument... bla.. haiz.. sumhow onder y am i in this course when i actualli wanted to be a police women next time.. haiz.. shouln't be i stduying law course insyead of finance?? HA..guess i should stop probing myself after all i been thru two yrs le.. hehe.haha.. so haha.. oppz.. hmm.. ya lo.. jus sumhow.. a lot of thought flew pass jus like cupids.. haha..opps did i use the wrong noun.. hmm aniway..so happi todae neh bought my desired belts le.. one which i wanted it badly.. haha.. den went to esprite to try sum clothees wanted to buy.. but sumhow.. i jus did not.. sob.. haha.. yep.. den on my way to taka.. saw a rather pitifull father and son.. son performing with the drum and father was crippled.. think one of his legs were amputated.. poor man.. haiz.. at that moment my minds wander.. heart sank.. i mean the man is so yopng and such a thing happen to him..and is realli a real case nt those that con ppl.. hmm..so.. i jus donted wat ever littlle amount i have hopfully it is enough for a proper meal.. haiz.. compared to them we are a thousand time lucky.. realli.. and yet we can still hear ppl grumbling abt life, abt work.. bla.. compared to them.. we r realli luckky at least we get to do the things we wan.. it only lies with our attitude... hmm.. is realli a wonderfull lesson learnt.. i will treasure my life, ppl ard mi more... amd accomplished as mani thing i can making the best out of each.. haha.. yea!! nt forgetting my studies.. hmm.. an incident which realli worth pondering..

oh ya.. den i started work lo.. todae the crowd rather more then on tue.. haha.. scope alot of cups.. hehe..den bee leng.. told mi that she might wanna resign.. huh. was my first word.. oh no.. if she is gone life at venezia will nt be that fun le.. cos she is forever so sweet pretty and fun to work wif... haha and lyn.. she is also leaving cos her sch starting soon.. sob.. haiz.. y????hmm.. i shall chant harder,, now hopefully they stay.. haha hmm.. sianz.. life w/o them i realli boring i guessed.. haha.. yeap.. think that all for todae lo.. oh ya... btw.. the D'juices shop gave us.. 2 bottles of juice each.. onli to relise they expired todae.. nowonder gave us la.. haha.. but still it is nice.. ahha thankss aunti.. haha.. yeah...guess.. turning in to bed soon.. tml.. 10 am IS`lesson wor.. haha...yea... gtg... byes.. to all babe and hunks reading this.. hehe...

a FullFiLliNg SunDaE..

hey... yea.. todae training at damai was shiok!!! thumbs up..guess wat ? i woke up at 6.20 wor... am summore.. 1st time sia.. summore my parents nt in spore... i can still wake up.. opzz.. haha actualli got xinyi to give mi morning call la.. guess half of the credit goes to her.. aniway.. met her and siew hoon at the BP plaxa bus stop took 963 to bukit batok chnaged to express bus 506.. all the way to damai sia.. so shiok.. slept thruout the journey.,.. onli relised that it started raining soon, rain water sumhow leak in which i realli wonders.. cos is an air con bus.. but i culd feel the rain water.. from the back of my neck cos we sat at the rear.. haha den.. hmm journey was cool.. though i gues siew hoon was late as an item ic.. haha cos she supposed to reach by 8am.. but we reached ard 8.15.. hah.. aniway.. brought bee hoon frm my hm.. so ate there with xinyi.. letting other ttrainers envy us.. oppx.. wanted to share with u guyz.. but ur rejected.. sobxxx....haha nah jus kidding.. soon the training started with usual spirit booster.. haha... was a song session by the 4D choir.. they sang SHE song haha.. can u imagine ah gong and ah ma.. dancing singing that song.. oh my so damn cute la.. haha.. in SGI, nothing is impossible.. haha den soon the training started.. todae was a lil diff.. we get to use the field.. all thank to the weather yesterdae.. the grass was dry.. must be all daimoku put in by all participants.. haha.. yeps.. weather was rather cool.. like the sun, the rays, the laghters, the breeze, ppl breathing. haha oppz.. am i sick or wat.. aniway.. got our new formation.. haha it was a lil good.. formation i should sae.. haha summow movement is much asseccible an we as participants could also see the shape let alone the audience on that dae.. haha.. good job wor.. ray.. and backie,, haha.. CheeRz!!.. soonn is our turn for the run thru.. haha i rmb wat i sae yesterdae.. must exert force.. hence jus now during the runthru.. guess wat.. i first time.. find my body gonna detached from the ground.. i try my best to tap as hard, jump as high yea.. and i did it..it was realli nice.commented by backie.. guess all participant realli put in their heart and soul into the run thru cos i believed all of us have this common goals, to touches and changed everybody life on that significant dae..deep inside mi.. i reallied sense the diff.. my tap was harder than usual.. my breathing was much faster.. haha gues sit is all worthe it.. aftyer the whole training i am realli shaged.. trying hard to catch my every breath.. haha..soonn we are suposed to rehearse the finale position. alot of walking in and out, stand uo sit down.. haha.. but all i been enjoying it all this while..yea..haha.. after that we were all given two tickets to invite our friends for this ycf.. guess what onli 2 ticket sia.. hmm is realli a struggle for mi dunno whu to invite cos i got so mani friend whu wanted badly to watch it, my friends, my parents, my relative.. bla bla.. and the list could go on.. hmm.. gues si shall leave it to gohonzon to help mi decide.. ha..while i will chant hard for it.. hmm.. den it was time to give meiqi a surprise.. celebrated meiqi bdae haha.. she looks realli stressed when we held the cake up.. and she cried.. oh dear.. i guess u r touched.. if the cake was mine i wuld be touched too.. there was no saboing.. but still is jus a pure hearted celebration.. which warms her heart.. haha guess all ywd in nrpsd has this common pattern.. all shed their tr=ears easily..haha.. at least i noe.. i am..haha.. yep after that we wnet nearby hawker to have our lunch lo.. haha salad chicken rice.. nice nice.. haha.. an d a cup of bandung.. makes my dae.. haha.. yeap.. chat alot, cshare alot.. was an ear opening for mi.. guess wat is jus so qiao.. big huiling was sitting opp of mi at the other end.. haha machiam like directors sia.. ooppz haha..yep.. we were nt sitting under the shelter.. guess wat is like eating undera sun.. haha luckily the sun was rather.. coolling i mean as in nt strong la.. hha.. yea.. haha after that we had a dessert spree went to bedok to have cocktail with aloe vera.. nice for the throat and for skin too wor.. haha.. yep after that boarded train all the way to xinyi hs which is sum where senja there lo... near my hs too.. went her hs to print notes.. bla..and i finally got the campus connection pic.. arghhhh.. loves it men.. haha..after that decided to go hm instead of roaming in BP plaxa.. haha.. yep.. so made my way hm.. and saw my parents they are back.. haha miss themm... hehe.. yep.. helpout a lil with mopping, clleaning. yeap.. so there goes my wonderful dae.. oh ya.. ended with a nice dinner at near by hawker.. haha.. yea..

InSpIreD...

yoz.. hows everybody?? haha ur forever cute huiling is doing great over here.. busy muggling with tutorials, lect, project, part time work, gakkai activity, ycf training.. oppx.. haha.. hmm i am realli eager to blog.. now guess wat i jus returen from our jap tap dance daimokukai which end around 5 plus.. it was realli an enriching and enjoyable moment.. we get to see the orginal or the jap tap dance..it was realli worth saluting.. was damn envy by the spirit they possesed though the steps seem simple.. and watched our own dance.. oh.. my.. i reallised my force was'n't there..oppz.. ya i agree with wat backie sae.. we must realli jia you.. exert as much strength as possible.. is the spirit that we should show and not jus dancing alone.. is nt the steps that matters but the joy we should have while performing.. yes i must definitely fullfill it..!! haha.. okok.. a few more training to ycf le at expo wor.. kinda excited.. but i will miss all the wonderful time we had under the scorching sun.. hmm.. must treasure each momment men.. haha.. okok after the daimokukai.. we had a dinner cum dialogue session with john.. haha so inspiried thru out.. i should sae he is realli a wise men with lots of tru and fullfilling encouragement.. thou at time we seen him as a person full of crap.. but din realise.. he's words do make sense and it was realli encouraging haha.. hope to gain more encouragment to ya.. sum dae... and guess wat he be graduating from nrpsd.. which means he will leave us beri soon.. oh sob..., haiz.. will miss all his nonsense and wise encouragment.. hmm.. guess.. tian xia wu be shan de yan xi.. guess perhaps its time for him to move on.. haiz.. but i believe we will miss ya.. hmm.. den after that initally wannated to go town.. but we chatted till 8 lus.. so decided to go over to harbor front starbucks to continue our chit chat session.. haha.. damn shiok.. orderd mocha blended.. haha and went shop shop in fila shop, heng tan and U2.. haha.. yeps.. was realli a wonderfull night and i will nv forget wat john sae.. " to be praise by a fool is an insult, to be scolded by a wise is a praise to be uphold"... and tml.. is ycf training at damai again.. oppx for ation changed.. guess tml have to be ultra attentive haha.. and energentic wor.. haha yea!!! ycf 2005 HerE i ComE!!!!

a touching story....

It touches my heart i hope it touches yours too...

my mom only had one eye.

i hated her... she was such an embarressment..my mom ran a small shop at a flea market.

she collected little weeds and such to sell...anything for the money we needed she was such an embarressment.

there was this one day during elementary school..it was field day,

and my mom came.i was so embarressed. how could she do this tome?

i threw her a hateful look and ran out.

the next day at school..."your mom only has one eye?!?!" ..and they taunted me.

i wished that my mom would just dissappear from this world so i said to my mom,

"mom.. why dont you have the other eye?!if you're only gonna make me a laughing stock,why dont you just die?!!!" my mom did not respond.. i guess i felt a little bad,

but at the sametime, it felt good to think that i had said what i'dwanted to say all this time..maybe it was because my mom hadnt punished me,but i didnt think that i had hurt her feelings very badly.that night...i woke up, and went to the kitchen to get a glass of water.

my mom was crying there, so quietly, as if shewas afraid that she might wake me.i took a look at her, then turned away.

because of the thing i had said to her earlier, therewas something pinching at me in the corner of my heart.even so, i hated my mother who was crying out ofher one eye. so i told myself that i would grow upand become successful.cause i hated my one-eyed mom and our desperate poverty..then i studied real hard.

i left my mother and came to Seoul and studied,and got accepted in the Seoul University with allthe confidence i had.then, i got married.

i bought a house of my own.then i had kids, too..now i'm living happily as a successful man.

i like it here because it's a place that doesntremind me of my mom.

this happiness was getting bigger and bigger,when..what?!who's this?!...it was my mother.....still with her one eye.

it felt as if the whole sky was falling apart on me.

my little girl ran away, scared of my mom's eye.

and i asked her,"who are you?!""i dont know you!!!" as if trying to make that real. iscreamed at her," how dare you come to myhouse and scare my daughter!""GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!"and to this, my mother quietly answered,"oh, i'm so sorry. i may have gotten the wrongaddress,"and she dissappeared out of sight.thank good ness... she doesnt recognize me..i was quite relieved.i told myself that i wasnt going to care, or thinkabout this for the rest of my life.then a wave of relief came upon me...one day, a letter regarding a school reunion cameto my house. so, lying to my wife that i was goingon a business trip, i went.

after the reunion,

i went down to the old shack,that i used to call a house...just out of curiosity there,

i found my mother fallen on the cold ground.but i did not shed a single tear.

she had a piece of paper in her hand.... it was a letter to me.

-------my son...i think my life has been long enough now..and... i wont visit Seoul anymore...but would it be too much to ask if i wanted you tocome visit me once in a while?

i miss you so much.. and i was so glad when i heard you were coming for the reunion.

but i decided not to go to the school....for you...and i'm sorry that i only have one eye, and i wasan embarressment for you.

you see, when you were very little, you got into anaccident, and lost your eye.

as a mom, i couldntstand watching you having to grow up with only one eye... so i gave you mine...i was so proud of my son that was seeing a whole new world for me,

in my place, with that eye. iwasnever upset at you for anything you did.. thecouple times that you were angry with me,.. i thought to myself, '

it's because he loves me..'my son... oh, my son...

updates??

helo.. everyone.. hehe.. its been a long time since i last update.. my blog.. aniwya.. hahaa lot of things to mention and alot of thing happen.. i mean.. my life has been becoming busier and busier den before.. but the more busi i am the more happy i m cos i am doing things i realli wan.. haha such as.. soka activity, ycf training? staying over at sharon or they come my hs stay haha.. birthdae parties.. bla bla.. its been such an enriching life ever since councilship ended.. haha guess i made the right choice after all.. after ycf.. guess i be busy with ndp.. for the song signing item.. haha eager looking forward to that.. wanna pick up sum new skill.. hehe.. yep.. but sumhow.. i dun wanna ycf to end so soon.. all because.. i haven realli knew and i knew i will miss all the good times spen together and make friend wif all the participant.. sad sia.. hmm.. nvm.. must make full use of my chance for the next few training... and i din get to tok to him too.. sob though we been so near yet so far.. haiz.. haha.. oppz.. dear.. dun get jealous yea.. haha.. dun worries.. hehe oh ya btw.. last sundae after damai trining.. went to meet dear.. to go queensway market to have our dinner.. haha it been a wonderful time together.. though u like to disturb and "tortured" mi.. sob.. haha.. aniway looking for more time to spend wif ya,.. sian this weekend.. my parents all going malaysia.. i got no one at hm.,.. den dear got guard duty on sat.. if not he can come over pei mi.. haiz... no luck.. aniway.. see how ba.. this sat got daimokukai and watch video and get our clogs.. haha.. so excited!! hehe after that wil stay back a while and tasch vina the steps lo.. hehe.. yea.. will be a happening dae again.. haha.. opp.x.. tml lesson at nine,.. think i better get going.. nitex peepx... "make the most out of your life" Ikeda Sensei

a FullFiLliNg SunDaE..

hey... yea.. todae training at damai was shiok!!! thumbs up..guess wat ? i woke up at 6.20 wor... am summore.. 1st time sia.. summore my parents nt in spore... i can still wake up.. opzz.. haha actualli got xinyi to give mi morning call la.. guess half of the credit goes to her.. aniway.. met her and siew hoon at the BP plaxa bus stop took 963 to bukit batok chnaged to express bus 506.. all the way to damai sia.. so shiok.. slept thruout the journey.,.. onli relised that it started raining soon, rain water sumhow leak in which i realli wonders.. cos is an air con bus.. but i culd feel the rain water.. from the back of my neck cos we sat at the rear.. haha den.. hmm journey was cool.. though i gues siew hoon was late as an item ic.. haha cos she supposed to reach by 8am.. but we reached ard 8.15.. hah.. aniway.. brought bee hoon frm my hm.. so ate there with xinyi.. letting other ttrainers envy us.. oppx.. wanted to share with u guyz.. but ur rejected.. sobxxx....haha nah jus kidding.. soon the training started with usual spirit booster.. haha... was a song session by the 4D choir.. they sang SHE song haha.. can u imagine ah gong and ah ma.. dancing singing that song.. oh my so damn cute la.. haha.. in SGI, nothing is impossible.. haha den soon the training started.. todae was a lil diff.. we get to use the field.. all thank to the weather yesterdae.. the grass was dry.. must be all daimoku put in by all participants.. haha.. yeps.. weather was rather cool.. like the sun, the rays, the laghters, the breeze, ppl breathing. haha oppz.. am i sick or wat.. aniway.. got our new formation.. haha it was a lil good.. formation i should sae.. haha summow movement is much asseccible an we as participants could also see the shape let alone the audience on that dae.. haha.. good job wor.. ray.. and backie,, haha.. CheeRz!!.. soonn is our turn for the run thru.. haha i rmb wat i sae yesterdae.. must exert force.. hence jus now during the runthru.. guess wat.. i first time.. find my body gonna detached from the ground.. i try my best to tap as hard, jump as high yea.. and i did it..it was realli nice.commented by backie.. guess all participant realli put in their heart and soul into the run thru cos we do nt have much run thru with music.. which i realli wished for more. haha.. den it was realli a nice show.. sumhow i could feel it.. haha immedistely after the run thru..i am shaged.. haha.. tryong to catch my breath.. ha.. soon is the run thru for finale. though alot of walk in walk out, stand and sit.. but i still enjoy it.. haha.. yea.. guess it be even beter for the next few training.. my gosh.. onli 2 more sundae training 2 more 3 more weekend.. and we be on the magnificant stage in our life.. a stage that will changed other ppls life.. a stage where each dance step is given from our genuine hearts to touches every audience there.. hmm.. den after that was a lil encouragement and commercial lo.. cos there was this chief.. whu advertise the ycf watch and tee.. shirt which i haven buy.. so immediately i turned to sharon.. haha.to help mi buy.. and she agreed.. so nice of her.. haha.. after that got our ticket.. for the performance i got the afternoon one.. haha.. but now struggling .. dunno wanna pass the ticket to whu cos too mani ppl wanted to come le.. my friends, my bf, my parents.. haha.. hmm... let gohonzon decide ba.. i will chant for it.. yea..!! after that we celebrated meiqi birthade.. ourr dear meiqi.. haha yea.. she looked so stresses after traioning cos she is incharge of the clogs i guess quite alot of participant looking for her which stressed her up i guess. ahha.. aniway she cried... oh.. sayang i guess u were touched.. haha sumhow there is a common pattern btw the ywd Cic lo.. we jus can't control our tears.. haha.. yeap.. hope she like the surprise.. haha.. den after that went to near by hawker eat chicken ruice.. haha nice food.. love the salad chicken.. after that haha chit chat la kopi time.. hehe... john shared abt his childhood dae.. which he always go hospital.. but sumhow he chanted alot.. that this yr nt matter wat cannot visit there.. and so far he did not..congrats... ur prayer will be answered.. definitely!!den tok alot.. haha.. is jus so nice to eat wif so mani ppl.. esp nrpsd ppl.. haha .. family bonding neh.. haha.. okokie.. ur are jus like my sis and bro whome i turned to when i have prob... ur are the one i knew will nv go out of my life... hmm den after that we took a bus to bedok interchange for a dessert spree.. haha den went to xinyi hs.. to print my lecture notes.. thanks.. xinyi.. hah ai shi ni le.. oppx.. haha.. yep.. after that made my way hm.. when i reach hm.. hmm mum they all alrdy back.. haha.. soon mum tell mi they going to vist my sis -in law father.. dunno should address wat.. hmm.. for mi to noe for u to find out.. haha.. summhow.. heart kinda heavy when ever i visit hospital.. look at the patient.. how i should i could shre with them out buddhism the mystic law of universe.. but sum how. dun have the courage too.. shit.. i must rwalli chant for it.. for the courage.. like one of the wd whu is so passionate and innocnet.. jus wanting to do shakubuku.. share by a chief sum time ago.. during a daimokukai.. haiz..CAncer realli kills a life, disrupt the whole family.. hmm.. wnow must put that into my prayer.. chanting for his speedy recovery.... actual proof will happen.. this is wat i always believe thru abundant daimoku.. no prayer will go unanswered.. is jus whether when...

VictoRy In CampUs CoNnecTion!!!

haha... yo..weiyi haha i saw it.. yea here i am updating whats happening around mi.. yea.. haha my dear oso ask mi to update.. sob guess it been a long time since i last blog.. aniway.. haha last fri.. went for a supper wif my dear.. after my night shift work at venexia.. sad.. now gotta sae bye to thiong bahru... cos i m working in taka with lyn wor.. haha fun fun.. hmm.. yep den we went west coast park cos he drove ma.. den the mac 24 hrs sia.. haha i also get to meet up with his long lost friend.. haha dunno la.. he sae 5 yrs nv meet.. guess wat guys can be equally talktaive den ger now.. all the while they be toking... haha dun worry i dun feel neglected..at all.. haha cos i m rather tired after my work.. yep.. haha.. muackz!! aniway..the next dae was my campus connection to musemum.. haha was so glad with the attendance.. so wonderfull.. quite alot of new faces.. foods prepared were more then enough, games was rather fun as commented by all my nrpsd member.. thanks to all of ur.. is ur whu makes this event successful... haha realli enjoyed working with weilun and eelynn.. they are jus a bunch of smart, thoughtful, fun ppl to be wif.. haha thank to ur too.. haha my fellow organixer.. i will try to get the photo develop and show ya yea.. haha thanks for all ya hard work despite all ya busy schedule.. haha... we jia you together for ycf yeza.. haha.. aniway after the connection at musemum, we went for rowe's chalet.. oh my.. the chalet is jus beside OCH.. and guess wat the chalet is freaking big lo.. got 4 room.. machiam like lander bunglow.. sia.. too bad i din bring my stuff for next dae training if nt i cfm stay back and join ur in the making of happy meal.. hahah.. aniways thanks to all iic too.. for making burger for us as lunch after our sunday training... haha SSA is jus so diff from other organixation.. they are so poilet, thoughtful, realli go all out for the sake of their member.. haha i preomised i will nv gonna missed any of the weekdae and weekend training... haha.. oh ya den guess wat on sun.. haha we were a lil late.. reach damai sec ard.. 10 liddat.. den saw mok machiam damn stressed with the formation.. poor him.. cos huiling nt here she in HK le.. sob den i help him a lil lo.. haha also help him to coach a lil dance step.. for those new commer.. so glad our grp is expanding.. hehe.. we must jia you!! group B rulex!!.. haha aniway.. haha tml 9 lesson.. all dae lect den gonna tutor ginni before she go aust for hoildae.. haha.. ok la... that asll for now.. those whu miss mi.. can visit mi at taka on wed, thurs and sat.. haha.. or can find mi at SSA activities..By the way

the DARE to DREAM concert was fantastic!!.. thumbs up!! hope fore more.. graving for more.. haha..